The Journey

April 21 -Contradiction

I need to control my emotions

That's what you say

I react badly to  people

and turn them away

That's blindingly discouraging

You can't see that for yourself

That you do the same things I do 

But pick out my mistakes

I feel rejected and unheard

Day after day

and you don't realise

I am the way I am because of you

Besides, shouldn't I follow your example?

I can't say this to your face

I'm afraid of what you'll do 

But I need to let it out somehow

Despite this, I do respect you

I hate that we fight

I admit it is my fault too

I wonder if you'll ever read this

If you did, what would you say?

Would you lock me in my room,

Ban me from living

Or would you try something different

You don't see that I'm trying

I've been around helping out

I'm really pushing myself for your attention

But all I get is insults

How can you expect me to respect you?

If you don't respect me first?

After all, you are the older one

That's what you tell me when I fight with my brother

I know in your days 

It was almost tradition and culture 

To respect your parents

It's not as simple for me

My culture has been crossed 

And I'm stuck at which to follow

I know I'm only fifteen

And you are over forty

Does age really confirm priority?

I'd love to restart with you

Clean our slate and start afresh

But it needs to be a change on both sides

Mine, and yours too

We just need to be less hypocritical

And avoid all contradiction.

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