Forbidden |H.S|

~Eleven~

~Genevieve Arellano

The drive back to my house was silent. The only thing I could hear was Harry breathing heavily. I kept looking at him and then back out the window, I wonder what exactly set him off. Theo started asking a question and then.

Oh god.

"I'm just having fun, are you here to kill another Ar..."

Kill another? Ar? Maybe Theo is a pirate. He's not a pirate you idiot.

I felt Harry's eyes on me, I turn to look at him.

"What are you thinking about?" He asks, oh I don't know. Maybe why you tackled Theo to the floor. I mean he is an arsehole but there is something bigger behind this.

"Gen?" He asks again.

"What happened at the party? Why did you hit Theo?" I ask and his eyes dart to the floor. The car pulls up around the corner from
my house but I sit still. I want Harry to answer my questions.

He sighs, "I..." he pauses. I turn to look at him, his eyes aren't the same bright green as they usually are. They are dark and filled with anger, I don't like seeing Harry this way. Seeing him hit Theo didn't scare me, I was more worried about him even though I didn't need to be. But I'm still shocked.

"I can't tell you Gen." He finally answers and I narrow my eyes at him.

"What do you mean you can't tell me? I want to know what Theo said that was bad enough for you to hit him." I raise my voice.

"Not now Gen." He says calmly but I can see his jaw clench.

"Tell me Harry, please."

He turns away from me and looks at the steering wheel.

I let out a loud sigh, "Fine." I huff before opening the door and getting out of the car.

"Gen!" Harry calls for me but I slam the door and walk off. I hear his door open and a few moments later he is stood right in front of me. His hand goes to touch my cheek but I pull away.

"Harry, please." I beg and I look at his eyes, they are back to their beautiful green. But this time, they are filled with sadness, there is so much hurt and pain behind them and I want to know why.

"I can't tell you Gen, I can't." He frowns.

Why can't he tell me? It's infuriating because he is keeping something from me. It's obviously really bad. But I want to know so I can help him through it.

"I want to help you Harry. But I can't if you don't tell me." I sigh.

"That's the thing Gen. You can't help me." He brings his hand through his hair and sighs.

I put my hands on his cheeks, "Yes I can Harry, just let me."

He wraps his hands around my wrists and closes his eyes. He stays silent for a moment and pulls my hands away slowly, "You don't get it Genevieve. I did something bad, something awful. I will never, ever forget it. It will never get better. I will never be able to forgive myself. What I did can never get better and it will haunt me for the rest of my life."

My eyes stay locked on to this broken man, this thing he did has hurt him so badly. It hurts me to see him like this. It breaks me.

"Harry..."

He shakes his head, "I don't want your pity Gen, you would hate me if you found out what I did."

"I could never hate you Harry, you're wonderful. You're so kind and funny. You're always so mysterious and it drives me crazy. You never fail to make me smile, your smile itself could fix everything wrong with the world. I like everything about you, the good things and the bad but that's what makes you, you."

"No...no...no Genevieve, fuck." He starts tugging his hair. "Stop saying all these nice things. That's not me. I'm not this angel that you're describing me as, I'm far from it."

I'm taken aback by his words, what could he possibly think is so bad that would make me hate him this much? He's confusing me.

"I need to go, I need to think. I can't..." I start walking away and he doesn't follow. I wish he would.

I reach my front door, the tears are flowing down my face, I wish I never asked. I don't even know what he did but just the way he spoke about himself hurt me. It hurts me that he doesn't trust me enough to tell me what is killing him inside. I want to be the one to help him through this darkness. But I can't do that if he doesn't let me. I will find out one day and I will help him through it. But I need some time, I need to think over what he said. I need to distance myself from him for a while because if I don't, I will only push him away further. He needs time to think, once he's ready to talk. I will be too. I want the man that I'm falling in love with to be able to tell me what is bothering him. I want the man that I'm falling in love with to love me too.

---A/N
CRYING! Henevie is going through a rough patch at the moment. But ayyy GENEVIEVE has just admitted that she's falling in love with HARRY!