An Ashton Irwin Pregnancy story: left alone with your beautiful mistake

Is it all worth it?

Please read the authors note at the end of this chapter,as it relates to this specific chapter and I need your help! Thank you,hope you enjoy. Things will get more interesting I promise.

Three months later

After a month or so I'd moved out of the Hemmings and into an apartment,near Luke's house because his mum wanted to make sure I was okay nearly 24/7. It was small,but well done,but originally wasn't very practical for a baby. Luke and his dad came round and baby proofed the apartment,making sure it was ready for when the baby came. My due date wasn't for over another 5 months yet,but Luke was going back on tour in 2 weeks so he wanted to help out as much as he could. He hates my apartment, it isn't in the nicest area and isn't as big as he wants it. Despite it being close to their house,it is just outside their town and it was a definite contrast to Luke's large house and back garden. But,it was all I could afford.

Luke never told Ashton he knew about the baby. Ashton told the boys I'd split up with him,leaving suddenly one day with only a note on the side saying we was done. He showed the boys all the articles saying I'd cheated on him and that I was just with him for the fame. He said he'd seen me with the same boy in one of the articles leaving our apartment a few days before I 'left him'. I hadn't seen this article or this supposed mystery lover boy of mine. That night,Luke came home raging,ready to blow. "How could he even lie like that? He's such a dick! I don't think I can do this anymore Ava, I'm gonna kill him!" Eventually,Liz and I calmed him down and make him realise that the band was more important. They had millions of fans expecting them to come out on stage and rock it and they couldn't afford any dramas at this point in their careers. I told Luke to not be so angry at Ashton, despite how bitter I felt towards him. He needed to remember Ashton was his friend first and there's nothing he could do to change the situation. He calmed down and after that Luke was able to act more normal around Ashton,much to my delight.

I didn't really know why I wanted them to be friends. Maybe a part of me was still hoping Ashton would reconsider and want to be part of our baby's life. But that was just wishful thinking, Ashton made it clear we wanted different things. And I have to get on with my life. But I also knew if Ashton realised Luke knew,it would be awful. The whole band could fall apart,never mind how the press would react to Ashton leaving his 17 year old ex pregnant with his child. I don't want my child to be in the middle of a media scandal, it wasn't the start in life I wanted them to have. Luke has spent nights on the phone reassuring me that the media wouldn't think out,despite 5SOS fans hash tagging #whereisAva, trying to find out where I was. Since my baby bump was getting noticeable,I decided to only leave the house for school,one where no one knew me and I did my lessons and then left. Luke at first organised a driver to take me and pick me up,in case the press had discovered where I was, but we soon realised no one had a clue where I was. Liz and I had decided that it would be best to try and complete my A Levels/HSC's/senior year/AP's for when the baby was a bit older and I could try and get a better job,the one I had now wasn't going to cut it. I was a bar maid and waitress in the local bar,serving endless rounds till 11pm from Monday to Friday. Luke wasn't too impressed about my job. "What if something happens Y/N,what if some drunk idiot pushes you and it hurts the baby? Or there's a bar fight and you end up hurt?" I went to reassure him but a sudden flood of emotions hit me. "And what happens when the baby comes and you're away and you're mum is away and I don't have enough money for nappies or the baby needs new clothes or lets say the changing table breaks and I have to buy a new one,want am I meant to do then Luke? Please tell me!" I screamed erratically,my mood was all over the place right now. "Ava calm down,getting stressed isn't good for the baby!" He soothed. "All I ever do anymore isn't good for the damn baby!" I shouted back.
"Ava..." I walked away from Luke,into the kitchen. I had become so wrapped up with (trying to) get over Ashton and preparing for the baby coming,I had not stopped since they day I found out I was pregnant. Since then my whole life had changed and I'm not sure I could say it was for the best. "Ava please,talk to me..." Luke whispered.
"I don't know what to say Luke..." I leant against the kitchen top,my head in my hands. "What's happening in your head?" I shrugged.
"It's all so muddled. Everything just happening so quickly." I turned around to face Luke and he looked worried. "What is?"
"This,everything! Six months ago I was happily living with my boyfriend and now I'm preparing to be a single mum with a bad set of qualifications...I'm just not sure any of this can be worth it." I mumbled. Luke grabbed me by the shoulders.
"It will all be worth it when the baby comes,I promise Ava." I shrugged him off me. "How can you know that? How can all this shit be worth it? Maybe Ashton was right..." I walked away from Luke again,wiping away my tears. "No Aves, Ashton isn't fucking right. He's wrong. You are going to have a part of both of you to look after and love forever and it will love you back,you will be its favourite person in the whole entire world,the person they will turn too,cry on,shout at,all the things an mum does. You might not be able to give them a perfect life,but I don't think any parent can. But they will love you for trying your best." I smiled at Luke.
"You're right,you're so right,I'm sorry I think my emotions are a bit overwhelming right now." I apologised.
"Hey,it's okay. I'd be the same,how about we get you to bed? Get some rest and feel better tomorrow?" Luke suggested and I nodded,hugging him.
"Thanks Luke."
"Anytime Ava." I unlocked the door and let him out,then went to my room,wrapping my quilt around me and drifting to sleep.

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Okay,someone please give me some feedback,because I feel like this is awful. This is really just a filler chapter!

I'm sorry, I'm from the UK and here we do A Levels, online it says the equivalent to A Levels in Australia (in New South Wales anyway) are HSC's, in America some would say they are APs or they would just call it their senior year. If anyone is from America or Australia and wants to inform me of what you do at the age of 16-18 I will be happy to edit this chapter with the correct qualifications!