These Are My Confessions

These Are My Confessions (13):

I've been stuck in this hospital for weeks. The only visitor I get is Aiyden. He took my phone away from because he says he is monitoring me to keep me safe. I don't think anybody knows where I am. Even when I ask to make a phone call they tell me the only person allowed to have contact with me is him. They keep me on this medication that keeps me depressed all the time when it's supposed to be an anti-depressant, ironic huh? I sat by the window watching the cars go across the freeway.

"Ms. Jackson today is your lucky day you get to go home." The overly chipper nurse cheered. I rolled my eyes turning my attention back to the window. "Don't be like that sweetie. I know your family will be glad to have you back." Aiyden walked through the door with flowers in his hands along with a bag.

"Hey babe." He kissed my cheek. "Is she ready to be discharged?"

"Yep all we need is her signature." The nurse handed me the clipboard. I signed them and pushed the clipboard back to her then taking the bag heading to the bathroom. I looked through the bag which consisted of a hoodie, sweats, hair products and Nike slides. I swear he think I'm a nigga or something. I put on the clothes then put my hair into a big braid. I unlocked the door to see him on his phone. I threw the bag at him.

"Let's go." He picked up the bag and we walked to his car. He unlocked the door letting the both of in. I got in waiting for him to take off. "You look beautiful Ro." He said pulling out. I leaned my head on the window. "I have a surprise for you." I looked over at with a straight face. "I'm trying here Robyn. Say something." I stayed silent. We ended up at this big house that was close to the water. It looked to be two stories. The outside was really nice. He got out the car grabbing my hand.

"Where are we?" I finally spoke. He handed me a key then pushed me toward the door.

"Open it and find out." I used the key to unlock the door. When I did there was boxes of shoes and purses ascending down the staircase. "I want to apologize, not sorry but truly apologize for my behavior. I want to be the person who makes you smile not cause you pain. I did this to show you that I love you. I even went as far as to go to counseling just like you asked." He handed me a piece of paper with his registration and visitation schedule. I looked at the paper which looked legit. I handed the paper back to him. "I know that this isn't going to fix all our problems but, it's a start."

"I'm proud of you for getting help that shows maturity. I appreciate the gifts as well they are extremely beautiful but, you need to take them back. This doesn't fix any of our problems."

"Robyn whatever you need me to do I'll do it dead ass. I'll even give you my medication so you know that I'm taking it." He said handing me a prescription bottle. "You want the password to my phone and my accounts they are all your birthday. You want your phone back here." He handing it to me. "Just tell me."

"I think we need a break from each other."

"If this is about the past then we can let that go. Let's focus on the future and start a family together."

"Aiyden." I said looking into his eyes.

"Alright Ro I get it. Just know I'm not backing down though."

"Can you take me home please?"

"That's the thing. I sold your house and bought this one for you."

"Really." I scoffed. "It's fine, I'll just call a cab to take me somewhere."

"Just stay here it's already paid for and fully furnished."

"You know I can't."

"Just stay here until you find something permanent."

"Aiyden,"

"Damn Ro stop being stubborn and take some help." He snapped.

"Fine, just until I get an apartment or something." There was a silence between us.

"I guess I'll get going."

"Bye." He brought me into a hug. He kissed my lips a couple of times. I sucked on his bottom lip as he picked me up carrying me to some room. We started taking each other's clothes off while leaving love bites everywhere. He entered inside me in one swift motion. Our moans filled the room with each thrust. I digged my nails into him as he sped up. I flipped us over as I began to ride. After of minutes of love making I came and he followed right behind.

"Damn girl, we have never done it like that." I got up and went to the restroom. I cleaned myself up and walked back out. I could hear his soft snores fill the room. I tapped his body waking him up. "I think you should go."

"For real Ro." I nodded my head. "Fine I'm out." He started putting on his clothes then left. I grabbed my phone calling Moni.

"Where have you been? Everybody has been worried sick about you. Do you not know how to use a phone?" She panicked.

"Monica I'm fine now. Calm down before you pass out." I heard her exhale through the phone.

"Where are you? I went by your house multiple times and there is a for sale sign in front of it."

"It's a long story. Come to this address." I walked outside reciting it to her.

"I'll be there in thirty tops." I nodded my head as if she could see. She hung up the phone. I walked around the house observing my surroundings. The walls were beautifully decorated and the furniture looked like it came straight out a catalogue. I looked around some more until the door bell rung followed a series of knocks. I went to the door looking through the peephole then pulled Moni inside. I pulled her into a hug not wanting to let go.

"I missed you so freaking much." I said crying into her shirt.

"I missed you too. Are you ok? He didn't hurt you did he?"

"No, I'm fine I just needed someone right now."

"What's been going on with you? This isn't you at all."

"I can't really talk about it right now. Just know that I'm fine and that everything is going to go back to normal. Right now I don't need any judgements, I need a friend."

"Well you know that I'm here for you."

"Thank you."

"Now show me around this big ass house." She laughed.

"To be honest, I just got here an hour ago and I barely know where anything is."

"Damn shame how do you not know the house you bought?"

"Because I didn't buy it. Aiyden did." I said shying away from her.

"Oh... well we can explore together." We walked around the house looking at the different rooms. We came across one room towards the very end of the hall upstairs. You would miss it if you weren't directly in front of it.

"Open it."

"Bitch why me, this your house."

"Scary ass." I rolled my eyes. I pulled on the door but, it wouldn't open. I tried to pull the handle again and it remained locked. "It won't open."

"Maybe you aren't doing it right. Let me try." She pulled on the door, receiving the same results as me. "I can't open it either."

"It doesn't matter you hungry? I think I'm going to order Chinese."

"Nah I need to get to my mans I know his ass worried about me."

"Tell Darnell I said hey."

"I will boo, I'll see you tomorrow."

"Do you mind giving me a ride, I don't have my car?"

"Yeah no problem." We hugged each other before she left. I went into the bedroom and turned on the tv.