Trespass - muke - COMPLETED

*MENTAL ILLNESS*

I know it's a touchy subject for people but I'd just like to talk about this for a second.
Even though I write stories which touch on mental illness and everything that comes with that, I definitely do not think this is a realistic description of what mental illness is like.
It is just a story, something for people to enjoy reading, not factual at all.

In reality mental illness does not come with any support or nice things. That's why you don't want it.

It upsets me a lot when people talk so much about how depressed they are, that sounds horrible but let me explain later. However I think it's good to say how you feel if you are genuinely having problems.

I don't like it when people claim to be depressed and hate themselves when they post selfies all the time, they can talk to any random person who is placed next to them in class and I just think they have no idea what problems people really have.

I do not diagnose myself depressed at all but let me read you a list of things about me.

I have never worn a bikini before and I have not swam since year 5.

I cannot order my own food in a restaurant. (My family don't know that's an actual problem they just put it down to me being 'shy')

I cannot answer the phone to unknown numbers.

I cannot talk to people in classes who I do not know already.

I cannot give presentations

I get changed for sports in the toilets.

The last time I self harmed was two weeks ago

I have attempted suicide three times. (I don't think my newer friends know that)

And finally- I have panic attacks in the school toilets on a regular basis.
And the saddest part is I don't think my friends know even half of that because I don't want them to know.

Now I know some of you have much bigger problems than that. And this was in no way an attention seeking post, but I am just saying that if you're complaining about how much you hate yourself yet are posting half naked pictures and pictures of you on the beach, and can talk to anyone and it be fine- just think about the people who can't do that. And then realise how lucky you are.

I'm sure I didn't offend any of you but if I did I didn't mean to- I hope no one takes anything the wrong way.

If you ever need any support message me because I genuinely care about every one of you - thankyou for everything x