Phil-
I open my eyes as I get ripped out of my haven of sleep. I become aware of my surroundings and the soft pitter patter of rain outside my window.
Great.
It's just another grey day, in this grey city, in this grey country, in this grey world. This stupid grey world where nothing matters. Well, nothing matters with me. If I would die, right here and now, who would care? No one.
Dan can live without me, he has enough money to do so, the only reason he stays with me is because he feels sorry for me.
My subscribers only subscribe for Dan. That's why he has 5 million and I have 2. I'm like Dan's second channel.
YouTube, that was a thing. I haven't made a video in 3 months now. I haven't done anything for 3 months. I have probably been fired from YouTube because we have to upload once a month. I don't care though.
I have also probably been fired from BBC as well. Once again though, I don't care.
It just gives me a better reason to die.
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If I die
FanfictionNot understanding feelings for others is hard. Not understanding attraction is hard. But it's even harder when you don't understand yourself. Trust is hard when you can't trust yourself.
