If I die

Stars

Phil-
I stand in the bathroom looking at my ugly tear stricken face in the mirror. I feel my legs get wobblier and wobblier until I drop to the ground and sob. I keep on sobbing and don't stop sobbing for about an hour, then I lay emotionless on the ground for hours. Dan knocks on the door many times but I don't reply or answer it.
Eventually I stand up and walk to the window, it's dark outside.
I open the window and carefully slip out feeling the cool night air in my face. I pull myself up and stay there, sitting on the roof. I take my phone out of my pocket and play music.
(I'm listening to this song and crying cause it brings back so many memories)
'You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's driving me mad'

"I miss you so bad." I sing, my eyes tearing up.

I sing along to the rest of the song. It moves to the next one.

'I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own'

I continue listening to the music, sometimes singing the lyrics, looking up at the sky. The sparkling stars.

'Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends'

(It's going to get deep)
The deeper meaning to the song hits me. His dad, his dad is up there. Some people say when you die you turn into a star and watch over your loved ones. I search the sky until I find a bright star, the brightest.

"You." I whisper to myself.

That's Jordan. Watching over me, watching over all of us.

"Hi Jordan." I whisper to the star.
(One of phils mates killed himself.. I don't know his name :( rip)

"Maybe I can join you." I whisper.

The star flickers. I'm not sure if I should take is as a yes or a no, I just stand up.

"Phil stop." A voice comes from behind me.

"Dan?" I ask turning around. "How did you get up here?"

"I'm not Dan." He says.

"But you look and sound like Dan."

"I'm not Dan. I look and sound like the person you love the most." He says.

"What's your name then?"

"Just call me Dan."

"Why are you here?" I ask.

"What were you about to do?" He asks.

"Jump." I say.

"I'm here to stop you."

"Why? It's not like anyone cares about me." I point out.

He shakes his head.

"No. Come here. Grab my hand."

I hesitantly step away from the ledge and grab his hand. A tingly feeling comes.