If I die

Worry

A/n: hey it's 2016 now. I hate this particular chapter. Actually, fûck this chapter. Just fucking ignore it. Skip over it, it honestly won't make any difference.

Edit:!Hi, it's been like half a year since I made that a/n and I'm still getting comments on this, so let me make this clear: THIS CHAPTER IS NOT CANON AND WILL ON HAVE ANY EFFECT ON THE STORY. It's a stupid cringey mistake alright? And I dislike the reactions I get for it. Thank you.

Dan-
I'm worried for Phil. He hasn't been his usual bubbly self for about 3 months now. The radio station understands and I told the phandom that Phil's sick, but really, I have no idea what's going on with him.
I get up off the couch and walk to the bathroom. I'm pretty sure Phil was in here a couple hours ago. I open one of our draws and a red and slice object falls out from behind our 'ladies box'. I pick it up and exclaim it carefully between my fingers.

"Oh my god." I whisper.

It's the blade of a sharpener, covered in blood, Phil's blood, and this was no accident. The way he has been acting, how lost and sad he seems when he talks. It all makes sense now.
Normally I would keep something as personal as this to myself but I feel like the phandom could really help with this one.

*time skip*
I finish setting up the camera and I sit down in the nerd room.

"Hey in- no.. Hey! Nope. Ok Dan.. Three, two, one. Hey Internet!" I start.

I get out a loud breath.

"Now you are probably wondering why this video has been uploaded on both mine and Phil's channel. You are also probably wondering why Phil hasn't been on his channel, or the radio show, or doing his live streams, or tweeting or doing anything on the Internet. Well he hasn't actually been doing anything at all. And.. I only just found out why today."

I put my face in my hands.

"Trigger warning, Guys.. Phil has become mentally ill. Phil is depressed, suicidal even. This is how I found out." I say holding up the blade.

"I just thought you should know. See you later Internet."

I switch off the camera. I transfer it to my computer and don't even bother editing the failed hellos out. Hopefully I can trust team Internet to help.

Tyler Oakley-
I go through by subscription box until two videos catch my eye, both identical. It's from Dan and Phil. It's titled 'what's wrong with Phil.'
I watch it. What is going on?

"Phil has become mentally ill. Phil is depressed, suicidal even. This is how I found out." He says holding up a bloody blade.

Oh. My. God. I should share this. Just let people know.

Troye Sivan-
Tyler has sent me one of Dans videos. Why? This must be important. I click on it and watch it. What he is saying his true. Phil has been acting very strange lately.

"Phil has become mentally ill. Phil is depressed, suicidal even. This is how I found out." Dan says as he holds up a bloody blade.

My hand instantly goes to my mouth. People need to know.

Connor Franta-
What did Troye send me now? Click! It's Dan, strange. Why would this matter?

"Phil has become mentally ill. Phil is depressed, suicidal even. This is how I found out." Dan says holding up a blade.

Dear lord.

Felix (pewdiepie)-
This video is being talked about a lot. Why don't I watch it?

"Phil has become mentally ill. Phil is depressed, suicidal even. This is how I found out." Dan says holding up a bloody blade.

Fùck.

Chris Kendal-
I sit on the couch with Peej.

"Did you hear about Dan and Phil's new video?" He asks.

"No why?"

"Apparently it's shocking or something."

"Let's watch."

I find the video and we start watching it. It's not Dans usual style.

"Phil has become mentally ill. Phil is depressed, suicidal even. This is how I found out."

He says as he holds up a blade. Covered in blood. Sure enough, Phil's blood.