that awful feeling in my stomach,
when i know things are gonna go south.
my heart is beating so loud,
i can feel it in my head.
anger overflowing my mind,
yet all i can manage to do is cry.
a normal person would yell,
yet i go silent,
as tears fall down my cheek,
i feel a pit in my stomach,
that no food can fill.
i fall into a flood of thoughts.
instead of speaking,
i gasp for air.
my mind is an ocean,
my voice is drowned out
by my thoughts,
and my heart has sunk
all the way
to the bottom.
silence is all i wish for,
even though i feel like
i'm at the bottom of the ocean,
i still hear everything
and everyone's thoughts,
tell me why,
i can't feel safe
in my own head?
my bed is a tomb,
as my corpse rots away,
all that's left is a skeleton,
my heart left inside,
torn apart,
no one wants it,
even after my death.
even if someone notices,
they'll never reach
their hand out
to pull me out;
that says a lot, doesn't it?
my heart is pounding so loud.
everyday,
i wish for a day,
that it'll fall silent,
and so will i.
