Luna Clark

Chapter 1.

'Nobody will ever understand...what it feels like to be in so much pain. To be insecure. Nobody will ever be there to listen to me. I'm lost and there's no one out there to save me.'

I take a look at my new bedroom one more time. The walls are painted in a light purple. A king size bed with white sheets and light purple pillows. My new room it's pretty large and it includes its own restroom. The wood floor is pretty fancy. Angelina thought of everything.

I take a peek at my front window. I enjoy the weather so far. It is very chilly and the rain never seems to stop. I leave the window open and go finish hanging my clothes in my new closet. My room it's pretty much the same. I notice that most of my wardrobe is black and grey colors. I put on the gray Adidas sweatshirt I love so much.

''Luna, dinner's ready!'' Angelina yells from downstairs.

''I'll be down in a minute mom!'' I yell back.

I walk downstairs and find Angelina with two pizza slices in her plate. Her auburn hair is put into a bun. She's wearing a matching two piece pajama. Her collarbones are visible from the pajama shirt. I go to the refrigerator and grab a water bottle. I put a slice of pizza in a plate and sit on the couch with Angelina.

''How do you like your new room so far?'' Angelina asks.

''It's fine. The bed is comfy'' I say and giggle.

She smiles and takes a bite from her pizza. Her green eyes stare at my unbitten food and then looks back at me. I bite my pizza for the first time and take a sip of water. Angelina turns on the flat screen and scans through Netflix.

''What are you on the mood for?'' She asks.

''Pretty Little Liars , perhaps'' I say.

Angelina is a big fan of Pretty Little Liars. I remember we used to watch it together every Tuesday night when it first came on. When we were a family. And dad was alive. I would cuddle with her on the rainy nights and fall asleep with her until dad came to bed and I would leave.

I finish my slice of pizza and get her plate. I go and wash the dishes.

After I'm done with the dishes, I look at Angelina. She is staring at the window just watching the rain. I wonder if she's thinking of dad in this moment.

''You should probably go to bed right now. You have school tomorrow'' She says and she sees me looking at her.

I don't reply. I look down at the wooden floor. She comes close and kisses my head. I hug her tight.

''I love you...'' I whisper to her.

''I love you too...'' She says.

I'm left standing in the living room. I turn off the kitchen lights and go back to my bedroom. Mom has closed her bedroom door. We're similar in this way, we keep our thoughts and feelings to ourselves. I go inside my room and close the window. The rain has stopped but it's very chilly outside. I take off my Adidas sweatshirt and change into nothing but a big black shirt. I go inside my restroom and brush my teeth .

I look at myself in the mirror. Just observing my figure. My blue eyes. My blonde hair. My thin and tall self. I admire my eyes one more time. I think of dad. We shared the same eyes. I look at my body one more time. 'You'll never be good enough' I tell myself. I look back at the toilet. 'Don't' A voice inside my head warns. I walk out of the restroom as soon as I can. 'Those days are over Luna' I tell myself.

I try to forget the thoughts I just had in the restroom. It brings so many bad memories from 8th and 9th grade. I peek at my window and admire the full moon for a few minutes. Me and my dad used to watch the full moons together while mom made dinner. Luna. Luna Clark. I was named after the moon.

I go into my comfy bed and wrap myself in a light purple blanket. Tomorrow is my first day of school at Vancouver, Washington. I've never been good at any social situations or being the center of attention. I'm nervous about tomorrow. I hope I make at least one friend. I smile at the thought of a new friendship. I put my alarm at 6 am.

There's a light knock on my door. I open my eyes and I see Angelina standing by my door. Her auburn hair is now curled and she's wearing a white blouse and a black pencil skirt. She is holding a black coat made out of thin material. And her phone on the other hand. Those pumps make her look so elegant.

''I didn't mean to wake you up'' She says.

''Wow. You look incredibly hot'' I say and laugh.

She smiles and comes inside.

''Well thank you, I wanted to say good luck and have fun'' She kisses the top of my head.

''Thank you, you too'' I reply.

''I left you a 20 dollar bill on the kitchen counter so you can buy lunch, there's a pack of granola bars in my room, I won't be back till dinner time. I promise to get home as fast as I can and cook dinner for both and..''

''Haha, mom it's okay I promise to eat something and I understand, how about I cook some dinner instead?'' I tell her.

''Now that would be awesome sweetie, I love you'' She kisses my head one more time.

''I love you too mom, you better go you don't wanna be late on the first day'' I say and she exits my room.

I stare at the ceiling for a while till my alarm rings. I look through my phone and check Instagram for a while. After that, I go to my restroom and turn the shower on. I let the hot water go through my body. I shampoo my hair and wash my face. After washing my body, I just stand there and let the hot water run through my body one last time.

I wrap myself into a white towel and wrap another one around my hair. I brush my teeth and go back to my bedroom. I scan through my wardrobe. 'What's the occasion?' I think. I grab a pair of black ripped jeans and a grey sweatshirt. I unwarp the towel and change into some underwear and bra. I put on my outfit and tie my combat boots.

I untangle my hair and put it into a messy bun. I do my winged eyeliner and grab my maroon jansport backpack. I go downstairs and check Instagram one more time. It's 6: 56 am. I get an umbrella and head outside.