Luna Clark

Chapter 6

The days go by fast. Alexander and I become closer and closer every day. He takes me out to eat every day. We spent every day after school together. I wake up Friday morning with a big headache. I look at my phone its 6:25 am. I go to the restroom and wash my face. I feel dizzy again. The whole room spins and I lose my balance. I go downstairs and eat the pizza leftovers from last night. I drink cold water until my head feels better. I go upstairs and do it again.

I think of Alexander. How he would feel if he saw me right now. I go to my mom's room and steal some multivitamins she takes. This will help with the dizziness. I change into my black ripped jeans and a white long sleeve shirt. I put on the beige scarf Alexander bought me. I put my hair into high ponytail and do my winged eyeliner.

''Let's walk to school today?'' I ask Alexander.

''Okay.'' He replies.

The skies are blue this morning. No sight of rain. It's just very chilly outside. We walk to school together and Jacob joins us half way. Friends can be the best therapy you'll ever need. I feel happy with Alexander and Jacob. They can be funny and fun to be around. We sit at our now usual spot in  front of the school. Jenna comes and complements me as always.

''Ya'll are going to Jenna's party tonight right?'' Jacob asks us when Jenna leaves.

That's right the party! I have completely forgotten to tell Angelina about it. I'm sure she'll be surprised since I actually never go out in a Friday night. But I know she's not going to be okay with it, underage smoking and drinking. That's obviously not my thing. I wonder if that would be okay with it.

''Are you going Luna?'' Alexander asks me.

''I don't know yet. I'll let you guys know after school.'' I say.

The rest of the school day goes by fast. Alexander takes me home early. I open the front door and Angelina is sitting in the couch with a handsome blue-eyed man. They have a cup of wine in their hand. They seem to be talking about business. It bothers me. Angelina seems happy, I know I'm overreacting but I think its too early for her to bring new man to our new home. I mean we've only been living here for a two weeks.

''Luna! What are you doing home so early, I thought you would be hanging out with your friends or something.'' She says nervously.

''What are you doing home so early?'' I ask her.

''This is Ben. He's a good friend of mines we work for the same company. We are  planning a meeting, other co-workers are going to be spending the evening with us'' She says and turns back to business talking with Ben.

She calls her co-worker Ben? I already have my own issues so I will mind my own business. Angelina's job always come first before anything else. She is just an Officer manager but puts all her time to it. She always had problems with dad over this, she would give all her time to her job. I go upstairs and take a hot bath. After an hour of just laying down in my bed doing nothing I look at my phone and it's barely 4 o'clock.

I go downstairs and she was right, a few other women with office uniforms who smell like expensive fraganses have arrived. I need to ask her about the party tonight. I go to the kitchen and grab myself a glass of cold water. I feel the emptiness in my stomach. I can't help it anymore this hunger is killing me. I open the freezer and grab myself a cup of vanilla ice cream. I also grab chicken leftovers. I eat until I'm satisfied.

''Mom... there's something I need to ask you?'' I tell her when she comes to fill their cups with more vodka.

''I'm sure it can wait, this meeting is very important'' She says.

''There's this party I've been invited and I wanted to ask if I can go'' I tell her nervously.

''High school parties. Underage drinking. Smoking. Sex. No you can't. '' She says without looking at me, but continues to fill the cups.

''I mean it's a Friday night, you don't expect me to just stay home?'' I say.

''Yes, I do expect you to stay home. You're Luna you hate going out. Look, we'll talk about this later the meeting is almost over'' She says and goes back to the living room.

'You're Luna you hate going out' Her words don't leave my mind. I thought moving to Washington was supposed to help us. To start over and change who I am. I can't change who I am. I'm a teenager who isn't worth anyone's time, not even her mom's. I go back to my room go directly to the toilet. I don't even know why I do this anymore. I can't stop it has become a habit now. Food was a precious thing back then, now it's like a poison to the demons inside of me. I can't help it.

It started with a desire to be thin. I was never fat but I had chubby cheeks when I was younger. Angelina would do it all the time that's how she accomplished her weight goal. She stopped after a while, dad was never okay with it. I don't even know why I'm doing it again. Maybe I can't find any good reasons to be actually happy, to love myself.

Angelina comes to my bedroom when her meeting ends. She is stil wearing that stupid office uniform. I just avoid her and continue to be on my phone.

''Okay so what did you wanted to tell me earlier'' She asks.

''It was just a stupid question, forget about it'' I say.

''I'm just very surprised you wanted to go to a party, the answer is still no, now come downstairs we're going to eat dinner'' She says and leaves.

I'm never going to understand Angelina. I text Alexander to let him know I'm not going to the party. It's a Friday night, Angelina always goes to bed early to finish her work papers. 

'Pick me up at 8:30' I text Alexander.

'Why so late?' He replies.

'Mom doesn't know. Long story' I text back.

I go downstairs and stare at my pasta for a while. Angelina doesn't even notice. She continues to be on her phone, she seems to be really busy. I look at my phone and its 7:00 o'clock. I throw my food pasta away and finish my cold glass of water.

''I'm going to bed early I'm really tired'' I tell Angelina.

''I have a lot of work to finish, don't disturb'' She tells me.

I go back to my room and curl my long blonde hair. I put on some mascara and do my winged eyeliner. After doing my makeup, I put on the little black dress Alexander bought me. I grab a pair of black wedges I stole from Angelina earlier. Looking at the mirror and I don't see myself, I don't see the insecure girl I am. I see someone confident and beautiful. Someone close to perfection. The dress is fits me tight. My thin body look amazing in this dress.

I grab my phone and without making a sound I walk downstairs. Angeline is already locked inside her bedroom. I can't believe I'm sneaking out of my own house. Angelina is going to kill me if she notices I'm gone. My heart rate increases when I reach to the front door. Quietly, I grab my house keys and close the door carefully.

Hazel eyes is standing under the moonlight. Wearing his signature black leather jacket and his black-ankle boots. His hazel eyes scan my body from head to toe. A sexy smirk appears on his face. I hug him tight, his minty scent stays with me. I go to the passengers seat and Jacob is already inside. 

''Luna! Is that you?'' He says dramatically,

''Shut up Jacob!'' I say and we all laugh.