Thought Of You~ Tronnor

The Man ~5

Korey's gone to Tyler's. My whole family is out. The house is eerily silent. What am I supposed to do now? I'm home alone and one of my best friends hates me. I sigh to myself and slump back down into my duvet. I know I shouldn't be complaining, but I can't help but lie in bed and feel sorry for myself.

At the moment, my parents are at work and Sage and Tyde are off somewhere with some friend or other. I don't really keep track as long as I know they're safe and not like, doing drugs or anything. My eldest brother, Steele, is never here, he moved out a year or so ago. The house is oddly quiet without anyone else, it's kind of peaceful but after a while sitting in silence can make anyone go crazy.

I put on my Spotify to fill the said silence and the first song to play is my favorite.

By the time the song reaches the second to last chorus and I realise nobody is home to hear me singing, so I start singing obnoxiously loudly. I'm quite shy about my voice. I know I don't sound terrible, but I'm too self conscious about it to say it's any good.

"Oh won't you be my livewire, make me feel like I'm set on fire." I sing to myself. Beginning to laugh, I let loose and sing on the top of my lungs.

"Your love will take me higher and higher, oh won't you be my livewire? My livewire!"

"So hold me when I fall away from the lines
When I'm losing it all, when I'm wasting the light." By this point I'm up off my bed and flailing my arms around to resemble some sort of dance move.

"And hold me when I put my heart in your hands
When I'm losing it all, when I'm wasting it all."

Soon the song ends and my mind goes straight back to where it was before. I've got to say, Oh Wonder is a good distraction.

I wonder whether Korey will actually talk to Tyler for me. Maybe he'll forget or just not want to and I'll have to grow up and ask him myself. I really don't want to have to do that.

Ha. Who am I kidding? Knowing Tyler, as soon as he sees me at school he will be off on one about how mean Connor is and how stupid I am, etc. I think Tyler is great and he's been my best friend for such a long time, but sometimes he can't keep his opinions to himself. It's not exactly his best trait for himself or the people around him. He ends up involuntarily upsetting people or getting himself hurt/ into trouble.

It's perfectly okay to have opinions, but he could learn to keep some of them to himself for his own sake. Korey and I warn him all the time about it and even after his incident with Kian, he still does find it difficult to keep his mouth shut at the right times. Oh god, I remember it like it was yesterday. In actual fact, if I remember correctly, itwas almost 2 years ago now.

Flashback [trigger warning- homophobia]

Finally, class is over. I rush to get my things packed into my bag, and swing it onto my back as Tyler and I walk out of the English classroom to meet Korey outside like usual.

As soon as we turn the corner to leave the block of classrooms, I can hear some shouting coming from the lockers behind us. For some reason I don't recognise the first voice, but I can definitely tell that the other person shouting is Kian Lawley. I'm so used to hearing him shout that I could identify it from a mile away by now. Trying not to notify Tyler incase he causes a scene, I stay quiet and carry on walking, looking down at my feet.

"Are they okay? Let's go check." Tyler tells me, turning around and heading to the source of the noise. I knew he would hear them and want to do something. Sighing inaudibly, I begrudgingly spin around and follow slightly more slowly behind him.