Thought Of You~ Tronnor

Take It Back ~8

Did I just hear that? I must be going crazy...

"S-Sorry, what d-did you say-y?" I stutter, shaking slightly.

"Tyler. He has a crush on you, Troye..." Korey repeats.

Good joke Korey... Ha. Ha...

Pure shock renders my whole body useless, as I try to form words, any words. I can't do it, I physically can't do anything.

No. No, no, no. This can't be happening. Not here, not with Connor sitting next to me. Not now. Not ever.

"i-" is all I can possibly manage before a loud sob breaks through. Angry at myself, I tug at my already messy hair and try my hardest to ignore the salty tears coating my pale face.

Why me? Why me! I don't like Tyler. I can't ever like Tyler. I'm such a bad person. I'm the reason he was so upset on the way home. I'm an excuse of a human. Why do I hurt people so much?

"It's happening again, isn't it?" I hear Korey say, noticing my current state. He knows me too well.

I force a nod as I involuntarily convulse on the grass. Ouch, I can't move. It's fine, I deserve to be stuck here forever. I can see Korey try to explain things to Connor but I don't catch a word of it.

I can't lie to him. I can't. But I can let him down like this. He must think I hate him. Oh god what have I done. This is all my fault, why did I ever have to come here? Why am I even here? Connor deserves someone better to have been behind the messages and Tyler deserves someone who actually likes him back.

Connor. Connor must be so confused. I feel so guilty. I don't have the energy to open my eyes again. I could just stay here curled up in a ball forever. At least then I can't let anybody else down.

I'm almost certain Tyler will never talk to me again. I've just lost my best friend.

As I'm shaking feverishly, I feel a pair of arms wrap around my tired figure. Not able to move, I just cry more into his shoulder.

"Troye boy, it's going to be alright. You have to trust me one more time." I hear Connor comfort me. My breathing slows down to an almost average rate as I let out my last few cries.

"T-than-nk y-you, C-Conn-nor." I sob, still not opening my eyes.

"Don't thank me, thank Korey. I would've had no idea what was happening without him." He informs me.

"C-come here Kor-rey." I tell him, making him come over so I could hug the two of them at the same time.

"Thank you... So much."

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Ring

Ring

Waving my hands around trying to find my alarm, I open my eyes and adjust to the morning light coming through my window. Eventually, I hit my alarm off on my phone and stretch my way out of bed.

It's just as I stand up that I remember what happened the day before. A smile breaks out over my face as I think back on all the time I spent with Connor, but it falters as I recall what Korey told me. Today's going to be eventful...

Shrugging on a grey sweater and skinny jeans, I style my hair, brush my teeth, pick up my bag and go downstairs to be greeted by a rather unimpressed Mom.

"Hey Mom." I greet, aware of the lecture she's about to give me.

"Where were you yesterday? And why were you not home until 8pm?" She asks me, straight to the point.