Thought Of You~ Tronnor

Photograph ~13

Hurt would be a severe understatement when you look at Connor right now. His light head laying limp on my lap with his arms protectively wrapped around his knees. His hair is scrunched up against his forehead and he just generally looks like he's given up. Tear tracks make his innocent features look like maps. Each track a thought going through his confused mind.

He's scared.

He's scared of what they'll do. He knows we're here for him. But that's not to say we can protect him from everything. He's painfully aware of the power they have and how much damage they can do. After all, he's had to witness it being done first hand for years...

It hurts me to see him like this, it really does.

I want to hug him and take all his worries away. But that's not how the world works. All I can do is try to momentarily distance him from his thoughts.

Lunch ended 5 minutes ago so Tyler and Korey had to go to I.T. Usefully, Connor and I have a free period at the same time now.

"Hey, hey," I whisper to Connor. He looks up at me with curious eyes. "Let's go do something, you'll never feel better if you mope around here forever."

There's no reply from him, he just stares at me. So I take it upon myself to lift him up from the grass and walk him to the bathrooms on the other side of the campus.

"Come on Connie, let's wash your face." I tell him, turning on the tap so I could use it to splash his face.

"Troye!" He laughs, splashing me back.

Seeing him happy again makes my heart melt. I wish I could freeze time and keep him happy like this,

He washes his face with the cold water and looks back at me to see what to do now.

"What's your favorite thing to do?" I ask him.

After thinking for a while he responds, "I like to take photos."

Perfect. Taking his hand, I pull him with me to the woods just out from the school field.

"There's some beautiful nature in here for you to take pictures of. As long as I keep an eye on the time we'll be back at school in time for last period." I tell him, pulling out my iPhone as he does the same.

"You're the best," Connor smiles. "Wait, stop. Stand there." He instructs me, moving a good 5 metres away from me at an angle which means there's no light hitting me, and taking a few photos.

"One second." He tells me, going onto some editing apps I've used before like 'Afterlight'. It takes him a minute or so but eventually he calls me over from where I'm looking at some pretty colored flowers to show me it.

"Woah. That's amazing Con!" I tell him, looking in awe at the picture he just took. (pic at top)

"Thanks." He seems happier than before and I can't help but feel like I've accomplished something.

"C'mon!" I say, jogging over to the pretty flowers and letting him go to work taking shots of them.

The entire time I stand there and watch him in fascination. He has such a unique eye for nature and photography. His creativity flows onto everything he sees and only he can capture something the way he does. It's like he sees the world in a whole different light and shows it through capturing the things he sees in his own way. I think it's beautiful. I think he's beautiful.