midnight musings

school

returning,

returning to crowded hallways filling me with a sense of emptiness.

starting,

starting to exercise forced humor and happiness for the sake of others again.

planning,

planning for a future i have not decided on yet.

feeling,

feeling that familiar fear that not a single move i make goes unnoticed or unseen.

slipping,

slipping into old habits or procrastination and pettiness.

preparing,

preparing for one hundred eigthy days of a tiring circle, barely getting by.

new,

new attitudes, same faces.

educational,

learning how to become invisible and shut out the rest of the world.

back to... school?

funny, you spell "hell" differently than i do.

a/n: i want those last two lines on a t-shirt. yay, i'm funny and relatable. anyway i go bts in two days. i might cry. can i just stay home and watch we bare bears and adventure time instead of going back?