What have you done to yourself Alice?

3

-2 months later

I looked into the old, wooden, full length mirror that I had in my bedroom. My collar bones were prominent. You could see every single one of my ribs and they stuck out further than my boobs. My hipbones stuck out. The gap between my thighs could fit a whole pencil case.

I held out my left arm so it was straight and wrapped my middle finger and thumb around it just above my elbow. They touched. My fingers touched. I did this everyday for at least a month and they had never touched before. A smile escaped my lips, all my hard work was finally paying off.

I walked closer to the mirror and saw my make-upless face. I looked pale and ill, my cheeks were hollow, there were darks circles surrounding my eyes, I felt beautiful.

I'm finally getting there, I'm so close to perfect, I just need to lose a bit more.

I walked to the bathroom and got out the scales once more.
The white paint on the scales had worn away from how many times I used it.
I closed my eyes and stepped on, I waited a little before opening my eyes and looking down at the number. 35.5kg. I smiled for a moment until my smile turned completely upside down. That meant my bmi was now 13.9.

Good, but still not good enough.

I stepped off and began to walk downstairs, it was a weekend and my parents were out food shopping so I was home alone with nothing to do.

I took two steps down the stairs and suddenly felt dizzy and faint, I couldn't see anything but blackness for a while so I sat down on the step I was standing on. I smiled again, I'm light and empty, I hadn't eaten a full meal in weeks. I felt lovely. The faintness was just proving that I was getting skinny.

I eventually got down stairs, I was a bit wobbly but I held onto the banisters for support. The rest of the day I just lounged around, didn't really have the energy to do much, so I didn't.