What have you done to yourself Alice?

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I woke up with a huge headache. My alarm didnt help. I felt exhausted, but I felt like that all the time so this day was no different. Monday, again. I stayed in bed for a while contemplating whether I should just tell mum that I was ill.

After a few minutes, I slowly sat up, even that made me feel dizzy. I sat on the side of my bed and put my knees together to do a 'leg check' the skin on my legs were pale and dry, but thin, not enough, but they were close.

I got up, again slowly as not to worsen my headache. I couldnt be bothered to shower, I shoved any clothes on that I found, I didn't really care what I wore or anything anymore, none if it mattered, the only thing that mattered was losing weight.

I no longer had the energy to exercise so I had to make up for it by eating even less, only 150calories a day. No more. Less if possible.

I began heading towards the stairs, walking very slowly as I felt very weak like my legs could give way at any moment. My body ached all over, I almost creaked like an old wooden door.

I took a few steps down the stairs, gripping onto the banisters. One step at a time. My heart began to beat so fast I felt that it would beat right out of my chest. My mind went blank and my eyes closed, my whole body just became floppy. I collapsed and fell down the rest of the stairs.