What have you done to yourself Alice?

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I struggled and tried to get away. But the sister nurse got another nurse to hold me down.

She forced the tube into my nose violently, I couldn't stop her. .

It felt so wrong, a plastic tube in my nose was so unnatural. And the fact that someone was holding my arms down felt so forceful.

Surely this is against my rights, this can't be right.

She put the tube further and further down, into my throat, I tried to fight it, I tried to spit it out but she forced it in my further, my gag reflexes began working and I thought I was going to throw up, my whole body was tense and I felt like the nurses were torturing me for no reason.

I felt the tube go further and further into my throat, down into my stomach, it felt scratchy and so strange, by this point tears began rushing down my face.

The nurse remained expressionless. She got the drink out and poured it down the tube, once it hit my mouth it felt cold and weird, like a really big, thick straw in my throat.

I sqeezed my eyes shut and tried to think about something other than how gross it felt. It didn't work.

More and more drinks being poured into the tube, it felt like an eternity. I started feeling less weird after a while. I stopped crying near to the end. My body relaxed and I just gave up.

Atleast it's better than actually eating. Atleast it want my choice to consume the calories.