After that the NG tube became a sick addiction. It was horrible, a vile sensation, I even got a nose bleed from it once, but the choice wasn't mine, there was nothing I could do, they had all control so it wasn't my decision to consume the calories. For some reason that made me more calm. Also that fact I had no solid food for 4 days straight made me feel very proud of myself.
One day a doctor came in to tell me that if I didn't stop getting the NG tube, they'd have to send me to a specialised eating disorder unit, of course I didn't want that, I watched watched a YouTube video about one of them once, looked like hell. So for the rest of my stay I had the weird milky drink things and on my last day I had lunch because they said I'll have to get used to eating food eventually as I couldn't have a milk drink at lunch at school.
Hah. Like I'd even eat while I'm at school.
After I was out of hospital for the second time, obviously my weight went up a huge amount. I didn't feel as bad as I thought I would though because every time I put on weight during my hospital stay, I know I'd lose it straight away when I got home, just a minor set back.
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What have you done to yourself Alice?
Teen Fiction(uNFINISHED) A teenage girls struggle with an eating disorder. Not a true story, but based on my real life experiences. (better written than my first book) But darling, in real life, there are no happy endings. Would appreciate if you comment on my...
