When you fall for the lion p.l.

Chapter 15

<<Amanda's POV>>
Great it has been a month since I last saw Phil.
Phil the guy that protected me from everything.
The guy that promised to never leave.
The guy that loved me for me.
The guy that cared.
My Phil.

I felt myself tear up as I thought about him. Something was telling me we needed each other, but I have to move on....right?

I CANT MOVE ON I LOVE THAT BASTARD.
Bloody fucking hell what do I do.
I cant just shake him off.
And it's too late I'm the one that said it was over.
I cant bear having him around anymore.
I hurts me

<<Phil's POV>>

It's been months and I think I'm all sobered up and healthy again.
As for my heart... Its still completely shattered.
I miss her hair.
I miss her eyes.
I miss our jokes and all our little talks. 
I miss how she would freak out over the weirdest things.
I miss how she blushed.
I miss how she loved me.
I miss her laugh.
I miss how silly and weird she was.
I miss her crazy personality.
I miss holding her in my arms.
I miss her touch.
I miss how she would steal my glasses.
I miss the taste of her lips.
I miss her.
I FREAKING MISS HER.

I cant shake her out of my head.
It's driving me mad.
I have been crying myself to sleep every single night.
I love her.
I-i just wanna try again.
I feel alone, broken, dead, empty, I cant breath.... I cant escape this feeling.
I need to see her, before I loose her forever.
I'm not ready.
I love her.
Always have.
Always will...

A few weeks later.
I decided I should go over.
It's been long enough.
I knock on the door.
I feel my heart race faster with every second.

Once the door opens I see Amanda.
"Hey" I say. I forgot how beautiful she was.
"Hey Phil" she said shyly.
In that moment our eyes met and I couldn't keep it in.
I kissed her....

I actually kissed her, but she didn't kiss back instead she turned away and closed the door in my face.
Why is she in such denial?
Why did I do that?!
Im so stupid!
I probably just even ruined our chances at remaining friends.
Oh no OH NO!

<<Amanda's POV>>
Did he really just?
No I cant fall for him.
Our love cant remain.
What if something happens to him with all the threats and everything?
It cant happen.
I have to get away.
I love him too much to let anything happen to him.
I'm moving back to America...