A Song of Anticipation [UPDATED]

Chapter 1 : My Best Friend

Thuggssss….!!!

"Arayyyss!!!" I cried as I fell from our duyan. I open my eyes at napakamot nalang ako sa ulo. "Haaay  panaginip lang.."

Its one of those dreams that keeps on hunting me. Sometimes I can’t help but remember that accident almost  a year ago.

Mag iisang taon na pala.

Every one told us that we were so lucky to survive that terrible accident, but some part of me is always asking "am I just too lucky to survive? Paano naman ung ibang taong nag buwis ng buhay sa aksidenteng iyon? Ung mga taong sumagip ng buhay ng iba? Aren’t they much deserving to live than me?"

I can’t help but to think everytime I remember those last moments bago nagkasunog sa barko and I always wonder  kung magkasamang naka survive ang mag kasintahang nag aala titanic na nakita ko. I hope hindi nag buwis ng buhay si Jack sa love story nila and they are living happy up to now. At ang gwapong chinitong nakita ko? Did he get home safely to the one he love? I hope he still smiles the way he did when I saw him. And finally I come to realize na pwede pala talagang lumubog ang isang barko kahit walang iceburg.

"PANYANG?!!"

Napapitlag ako sa gulat. I look up and there he is.

"Natutulala ka nanaman dyan. Ayos ka lang?"  he sat down to look at me.

I didn’t even notice he was already there, I wonder kung ilang minuto na akong naka dapa sa damuhan ng aming mini garden. I just nod, looking down trying to hide my teary eyes away from him. But I guess I can't hide everything, not from this guy.

"It's that dream again.." he said it as if he already knew what it is. His warm eyes are full of concern.

I didn’t say anything, it doesn’t sound like a question. He always knew na pag nagkakaganito ako is because of that experience. Sometimes nararamdaman ko na sinisisi ni Kaloy ang sarili niya sa nangyari samen, sakin. I have to admit, malaki ang naging epekto sakin ng aksidenteng iyon. I really thought It’s the end but I never blame Kaloy. And everytime I remember those faces of strangers screaming for help as if they're calling me, all I can do is cry.

He offered his hands and help me up.  I tried to smile, but I didn’t say anything.

He always has this weird expression kapag nakikita niya kong ganito. Its like serious but warm and full of concern.

I was about to say something ng bigla nalang akong niyakap ni Kaloy. I could really feel his warmth. "OMG heaven!!!!" Instantly my mind shouted.  I hope I didn’t say it out loud. Nanlabot bigla ang tuhod ko.

"I'm so sorry Panyang, it’s all my fault" he softly said almost whispering. And with his words nanlambot na din yata ang puso ko. <3 <3 <3!!! Pede bang dito nalang ako forever, nakakulong sa mga bisig mo?.. Ayiyieee…!!!

"Ewwww lumayo ka nga saken ang baho mo!!! " palusot ko, trying to break away from his arms. I make face as if hindi ko na matake, pero ang totoo ang bango pa din ni Kaloy! Ayieee…!

"Anong mabaho? Bagong ligo nga ako ehh.." at tinaas pa ni Kaloy ang kanang kamay nya at pilit inilalapit ang ulo ko sa kili-kili niya. "..bagong ligo sa pawis !!!!" and he made this laugh, ang kanyang evil laugh.

"EEwww!!! Kadiri.. " I Shouted as he successfully dunk my head into his under arm. Grousss!!! I realize he didn't smell that good after all.. He finally let go of me.  And its time for revenge, isang malakas na palo sa dibdib ang natanggap ni Kaloy mula saken.