Wherever You Are

Wherever You Are Chapter 4

So here's chapter 4 enjoy! I know you'll be shocked.

Chapter 4:

Unburied Memories

(Derek's point of view)

Well I sure didn't expect that. I'm sitting here now in the briefing room, and I'm going to tell JJ and Rossi about Hotch. I'll tell Reid to even though he will probably go into some statistics. I'm nervous because I don't think Hotch ever wanted us to know about this, I know if this was my secret I wouldn't tell anyone.

The girls walk in look confused.

"Were's Hotch? I thought we were talking about our next plan to find them?" JJ says this confused, I think she's upset about Jack mostly.

"we are but first Hotch has gotta tell us about something... So we can find the deeper connection." I look down.

Reid walks in "Garcia told me you knew something about Hoth that needed to be... adressed? So we could find the deeper connection." even Reid looked a little confused a look of curiosity on his face.

"everybody in here?" I did a head count. Yep. That's everybody. "pull the blinds down kid."

Reid did pull down all the blinds and we all sat down.

"so what's going on?" Rossi said as he put his hands up and shrugged his broad shoulders.

"I think Garcia should explain this.."

(Garcia's point of view)

I nodded at Derek. I opened the file on the screen.

"now what you are looking at..." I trailed off.

"Garcia is that Hotch's file?" JJ looked Scared.

I just nodded. I zoomed in in a part if it, it had him and Blake's name printed there. I opened it.

"what..."

"I..."

"no!"

"I mean..."

Voices of concern filled the air. Rossi silenced everyone.

"well... Looks like when Hoth and Blake were Two, their twins, their mother gave then up to an orphanage. They went in and out of foster care..." Rossi looked shocked and sad.

"the unsub is probably related to this somehow..." Reid said." we have to talk to Hotch and find out..."

"JJ.." Derek called as she stormed out.

(Hotch's point of view)

"JJ.." she stormed into my office tears on her cheeks.

"JJ. What's... Wrong?" I wiped the tears from my eyes, I'd been in here 30 minutes thinking about Jack and Elizabeth and Blake and ... Strauss's attitude. JJ walked over to me and sat down next to me.

"hey." she had a tear running down her face.

"hey..." I looked down while saying it.

"I heard." JJ said slowly.

"About what?" I asked her, staring into her eyes.

"About what your mom did to you and Blake... How she left you... How you don't know who she is."

I sighed. "the team knows?"

"yeah..." JJ just smiled sadly and hugged me.

"You can tell me about it... If you want. It'll help us find Jack. And Lizzy." she grabbed my hand.

I nodded. "ok. I'll start from the beginning."

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When Hotch and Blake were four...

"Hi darling..." a women with blonde hair gently strokes four year old Hotch's brown ruffled hair. She looked at him and sat cross legged by Hotch's bed with Hotch sitting in her lap his head on her shoulder. She was crying.

"Mommy why are you crying." at four years old little Hotch sounded a lot like his son Jack.

"oh ... I just miss you..." she kissed his little head. She began to sob so much, that little Aaron began to wipe away the tears.

"I'm so sorry darling I love you so much I will get everything settled I will, and I'll come back for you and your brother." her tears were just coming and coming and she kissed his face again and again. "mommy when will you be back?" The little four your old had dirt smudged under his right eye and his hair was mess.

Her eyes blurred and she started sobbing so much she couldn't see anymore. Aaron's little hand rested on hers "don't cry mommy." he hugged her again and she kissed his head and walked out leaving him there were he broke down in tears.

She walked outside to her beat up car. She pulled out her badge from her pocket.

"what I gave up for you..." she starred at her badge.

"working for my department. Giving up my boys." she kicked her tire and started crying again as she drove back to work. So much for a lunch break.

When little Aaron's mom had left Anthony came into the room to glare at Hotch.

"your mama came again." he glared and spit on the floor.

"yeah... She did..." Aaron replied looking down submissively.

"she loves you you little idiot. You and Blake. Even that girl Elizabeth gets loved by your mama. Why's that. She got a soft spot for her. Heh probably you little twerp! " Anthony kicked Aaron so Aaron stood up and punched his face hard causing Anthony to get a bloody nose.

A little girl named Jade charged in and started yelling at Hotch. "You hurt my Anthony you little idiot." Jade tried to kick at Hotch. Blake rushed in to help Hotch along with two adults who drug Anthony and Jade out.

"we'll kill you one day! Kill you and Blake! And that little Elizabeth! Mark my word! We'll ruin your life!" Jade yelled and little Aaron rocked back and forth crying for his mom.

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(Hotch's point of view)

I was crying by the time I finished.

"That was my life... And the last time I saw my mom and the last time I ever hugged her..." I put my hands over my eyes and looked up to face JJ who hugged me again and said "Hotch... I'm so sorry... I never knew that."

"its not your fault JJ it's my fault.

Just then the door opened and there stood el, our old team member.

"Hotch... " she ran over and hugged me and there I was between the two girls tears in my eyes and confusion in my head.

JJ smiled at El and El looked different then I remembered her last.

"El why'd you come here?" I looked at her face.

"I wont leave my family like this Hotch. I know I'm not a part of this team anymore but in my heart I am and I came when I heard about Jack... " El looked at me.

"Hotch is Elizabeth from your childhood Elizabeth now?" I looked at JJ once she said that. I don't know, alot of girls are named Elizabeth, I never thought of that." I started thinking then I jumped up from my seat and ran to Garcia's office.

Garcia look up Elizabeth from that orphanage I was in. Garcia looked startled and taken aback.

"yes sir." she did and it popped up.

"Elizabeth Crown. Parents were Tony Crown and Kate Mark."

"Does that match my baby-sitter?"

"oh my god yes sir!"

"what are the were bouts of Anthony and Jade, the kids in the orphanage?"

She pulled it up, printed it out and I grabbed Derek and yelled "Gather up Rossi and Reid, Blake and JJ and El. I'll explain in the car."

"Yes sir. Wait El's here? It's a party now." he chuckled for the first time today and we all ran to the car and got in.