Just Out Of Reach • Billy Hargrove x Reader

Flayed

Waking up you open your eyes the sunlight seeping through the window your eyes adjust to the light seeing Billy staring into yours. "Billy...?" you reach out your hand to his face lightly brushing his cheek. "I'm sorry" you retract your hand "i didn't stop them..." His eyes soften he grabs your hand putting it back on his cheek holding it there. "Don't be..." tears begin to form in your eyes "are you okay?" Billy looks down not responding you trail your hand down to lift his chin up. "Let me try and help you" his eyes look glossy like he had been crying before this "i don't think you can." You didn't want to believe it if Will could get it out of him you could get it out of Billy. "Let me try" you feel him swallow back his tears "don't expect anything to chance" he gets up leaving you alone again. Sitting up you place the pillow you were once hugging back against the headboard looking down at your knees. They were all scraped up with dried blood covering your knees your head snaps to the door hearing Billy call your name. Getting up from the bed you go to find him "y/n! come here!" his voice coming from the bathroom. Walking into the bathroom Billy instructs you to sit on the rim of the tub. Without hesitation you do as he says Billy crouches down on his knees grabbing your calf "this will sting."

He pours hydrogen peroxide on your knee full of open wounds feeling the sharp stinging immediately. Letting out a soft cry of pain he doesn't react he continues to mend the wounds. The stinging eventually stopped once he wrapped bandages around your knees. Billy begins to put away the supplies "let me clean up i'll meet you in my room." You nod leaving him to his own devices settling back in his room you begin to brainstorm ideas. It wasn't long before Billy came back only wearing jeans and a belt smoking a cigarette. You scoot over to let him lie down you lean against the wall facing him. Billy puts out his cigarette in the clear ashtray getting into bed lying down staring at the ceiling. "Y/n..." he bother to took at you "yeah?" your heart begins to race. "You remind me of my mom..." your eye brows furrow "Susan?" Billy laughs before his tone got serious "no not that bitch." Billy crosses his arms "in California before we moved me and my mom were close..." you notice him starting to tear up. "She would watch me surf on the beach and help me whenever things went wrong..." tears flow down his cheeks but his voice didn't ever break. "You're the same way... you have to have a solution for everything" it almost felt like an insult from the way he said it but you knew he didn't mean it that way. "My father ruined it... she made her go away" Billy puts his hands to his face covering it completely.

You crawl towards him grabbing his wrists pulling his hands away from his face. His eyes were red tears flowing from them you didn't speak you didn't know what to say. Letting go you wipe his tears from his face giving him a soft smile "things will get better i promise." Billy pulls you down wrapping you in a bear hug not letting go. He doesn't let go for a while the silence was almost deafening but comforting. Breaking the silence you whisper something in his ear "if you had one wish what would it be?" Without hesitation he answers "to be back in California with..." he trails off you already knew the answer "your mom?" You rest your chin on his chest "no..." he props himself up on his elbows letting go of you. "To be in California with you" your stops you couldn't be hearing this right "me!?" Billy nods you scan his face but couldn't find any signs of him being untruthful. "Okay... well when this is all over we can go" you smile sitting up now straddling him. "God... you're more beautiful than i remembered" he mutters your cheeks immediately turn red "what!?" Billy places his hands back on your hips "i'm serious i'm surprised i didn't see it before." This moment would of been perfect if something in your stomach wasn't telling you he didn't mean it. Heather was gone and now he wanted you it felt suspicious. "You're just saying that because Heathers gone..." you knew he did something to her or the mind flayer did through him. What if this was exactly how he lured Heather to her demise!? Billy breaks you out of your thoughts "did you hear me?" you shake your head.

"I said me and Heather haven't been a thing since last November" your eyes widen last November was right after the hectic situation with Will. "What happened?" you bite your bottom lip "she was alright but she had no personality" Billy rolls his eyes "she always wanted to shop or something else that was stupid." Stifling a laugh you lean in closer "what if i enjoyed shopping?" Billy grabs the back of your neck "then you can do it on your own time." You lean down now inches away from his lips "feisty are w-" you cut him off kissing him. The kiss was soft and unhurried his mouth moving against yours in slow, delicious drags, tasting each other. His kisses you with a deep longing sense of hunger his tongue sweeping the inside your mouth. Your body is flooded all over again with butterflies but not the same ones from before. These felt like cravings ones that couldn't not be helped by eating. Billy's hand slides up your waist going under your shirt untucking it from your skirt. You pull back locking eyes with his Billy's eyes a dark and beautiful blue. Billy lets go of the back of your neck putting his thumb on your bottom lip pulling it down showing your teeth. "Is this the same mouth that told everyone i was just a friend?" grabbing his wrist you pull it away "what makes you say that?" Billy lets out a soft laugh "i heard what you told your cousin plus i talked to Zara." Your eyes widen when did he talk to Zara? Why weren't you told about this? What did he even ask her about!?

You sit up straight "when was this!?" he chuckles "the last science project we were paired together." It made sense Zara and Billy had the same science class you always asked her for updates so you could avoid him. You trusted Zara enough to not tell him how betrayed you felt when he replaced you. "What did she tell you?" Billy's hand freeze halfway up your torso "she wouldn't tell me anything besides what i already knew." You wrap your arms around yourself "Billy... when you went with Heather... did you really want her?" His brows furrow your eyes never leaving his feeling his hand squeeze your side "y/n..." Billy cups your cheek with his free hand "i never wanted Heather." Your heart feels like it's about to burst you swear you've never felt this way before. You lean closer placing your hand on his cheek "then why... why did you do it...?" His hand slides down from your cheek slowly tracing down your neck down to your stomach. "I don't know" his eyes follow his hand not looking back at you "do you promise it's just us now?" Billy closes his eyes his hand clenched into a fist it was silent almost to quiet for comfort. "Billy?" his eyes snap open pupils completely dilated looking at you with a piercing look. He squeezes your side like you were made of dough you let out a yelp of pain. You scramble out of bed escaping his grasp quickly running to the thermostat. You remember from before they used heat to wake him up from the mind flayers control. Running out of the room you find the thermostat by kitchen quickly cranking it to hottest setting. Billy quickly follows behind you his eyes completely red and dialed making your heart break.

What could the mind flayer possibly want to do with you of all people!? Looking around for the nearest exit you open the back door running outside. You remember Will telling you how the mind flayer "likes it cold" there is no way the mind flayer would come outside in the blistering summer heat. Billy stops at the back door staring at you his eyes barley the blue you could remember. You could tell he was flayed and out of control it shattering especially when you were in such a vulnerable moment. Watching from afar you see him collapse onto the floor writhing in pain you slowly inch your way to the door. He yells out a black like dust starts to come out of his mouth keeping your distance you watch it go into the sky. It disappears into the sky flying to somewhere out of sight turning back Billy was lying there unconscious. Running up to him you hug him burying your face into the crook of his neck. You didn't expect him to wake up you just wanted to comfort him. He hugged you through your horrible excruciating experience when your body felt like it was being set on fire. He doesn't stir his entire body limp like he was in a deep sleep you decide to make him comfortable. Getting pillows and blankets from his bed you place one under his head and cover him with the sheet. Placing a pillow next to him you crawl under his arm laying next to him you pull the sheet up to rest on your neck. Turing on your side to face him you close your eyes hoping sleep would find you. Drifting off you prayed that the horrors of the mind flayer would finally be over.

*BILLY'S POV*

Waking up Billy slowly opens his eyes feeling a searing sensation all over. Trying to get up he looks down to see her sleeping peacefully under him. He doesn't dare move his arm not wanting to disturb her when she looks so at peace. Her h/c hair was covering her face he moves the strands laying over her face. Laying back down on the hardwood floor he grabs her pulling her to his chest. He didn't want to admit it but this moment was perfect just him and y/n alone without a care in the world.

*Y/N'S POV*

Waking up you feel Billy's arm wrapped around you his face nuzzled in your h/c hair. You lift your head up to his "Billy are you okay?" Billy lean in resting his forehead against yours noses almost touching "yeah." You slide your fingers into his curly blonde he leans in his lips meet yours, tongue sliding across your lower lip before meeting your own. He moves his hands onto your waist the kiss was surprisingly exhilarating, it sent like shocks of electricity running through your body. You felt him break the kiss his tongue gingerly run across your bottom lip making you want more. His hand moved up your side under your untucked shirt to the back of your bra. Surprisingly he didn't feel you up or unhook it fully expecting him to. Instead his fingers graze your skin playing with the idea Billy's eyes rake across you. Feeling his gaze you prop yourself up on your right elbow "what?" He smiles "nothing" you look up at the clock brows furrowed "i have to go..." Billy's smile fades "why?" you felt his fingers stop grazing your back. "I haven't been home lately i promised i would be back to unpack the last of the u-haul." Billy's hand leaves your shirt "fine" you take a deep breath "i'm sorry but i'll come back okay?" He smiles putting his hand to your cheek "i know you will you always come for me." You smile back giving him a big hug wrapping your arms around his neck. You feel his arms around you praying and hoping he would never let go. Billy lets you go his hands trails your figure before letting you get up. He doesn't get up after you instead staying on the hardwood you leave the house. Going to your bike you hope to return to a healthier Billy than before. You saw a mysterious black mist leave him you prayed that was the end of it.