Killers: Taeyeon

Taeyeon: 16

I don't know what brought me here, but after being discharged, I drove directly to where I am now. He's the only one who could understand me. My thoughts, my feelings, the real me. I went inside and placed a candle on the candle sticks and the basket full of flowers in front of his grave. It's been a while since I last visited him.

"How are you, Heechul?" I squatted in front of his grave. "Did you finally see Hani? Or are you still looking for her?" I wiped the tears as they fell. "I hope you'll see each other soon. I missed you." I took out my phone. I clicked on the camera, and positioned the angle so I could see his grave behind me. I smiled. I missed taking pictures with my brother. I looked at the photo, and I smiled bitterly. The man who could understand me is here, resting.

I sang a song to him. A song that he loved. Was it because I sang this when he first fell in love with Hani? Or is it because this song was my audition piece? Whatever the reason is, I still wish he told me why he loved this song. I couldn't help but shiver in the emptiness that I feel right now. I'm facing my brother, and I came her unprepared. Nothing to say. Only bringing with me unexplained feelings that I could not comprehend.

"Heechul, when did you find out that you were in love with Hani?" I said out of the blue. "Or... why did..." I smiled sheepishly. "You fall in love with her?"

I quickly stood up, not because I know Heechul won't be able to answer me, but because I need to think things through. I can't always rely on Heechul. My brother is dead, and I can't keep on coming here, expecting him to answer me. I can't always cry in front of his grave.

I drove home, and I saw my dad, talking with Chanyeol. I went to my dad's side, and he glanced at me, before returning his attention to the papers on the table. Chanyeol looked away, and I understand why he wouldn't even glance at me. I'm fine with that. It was my fault, anyway.

"You just got discharged, and you didn't even go home directly to rest?" Dad said as I kissed his cheek.

"I visited Heechul." I said, and that made him stop. "Don't worry. I was just there for a few minutes." I said before quickly walking away from them. But I was stopped when my dad spoke again.

"Aren't you gonna say hi to Chanyeol?" He asked. I turned around, only to see Chanyeol's back, not even moving.

"Hi, Yeol." I said and quickly walked up the stairs.

I went up my room and placed my keys on the bedside table, but it fell onto the ground. I knelt to grab it, but I noticed something under my table. I took it out, and it was what Jeong-su made me keep for him. I can't keep this anymore because I cheated on his brother. I'm not trying to be rude, but it would be very shameless of me to keep something from them that does not belong to me.

I went outside and saw Chanyeol stand up. He bowed in front of my dad, then quickly walked towards the door. I just followed him out, and when he waited for his car to arrive, I stood beside him. I know he noticed me, but he wouldn't even look at me. I only need to give this back to Jeong-su, anyway.

"I know you hate me more than anything right now..." I started, slowly extending my hand to him. "But please do me one last favor and give this to your brother. This is his, and-" He quickly grabbed it, and walked away without saying anything.

I shrugged my shoulders and went back inside. Dad isn't in the living room anymore. He must be in his office. I went back to my room and lied on my bed. I can't believe I'm not hurting. Is this even real? Am I really this heartless? I really hate this part of me. I just took my towel so I can take a quick shower. After shower, I changed my clothes, and slept.

-

I woke up a bit late, so I had to wash up and change my clothes. I wore a white chiffon top and a pencil cut skirt. I also wore my black pumps and went to my car. I drove towards my office, and when I arrived, the first person I looked for was Sunny. I told her that unless the callers are dad, Tiffany or Seohyun, she must say I'm busy or I left or make up any excuses. Because today, I'm gonna focus on work.

I signed all the things that needed to be signed, approved the Halloween party that the staff requested. I know they are used to things like bonuses, breaks, parties or vacations, so I'll let it happen while they are under my authority. I heard Sunny's voice get a bit louder outside, so told her to connect the call to me directly.

"Taeyeon..." I heard Jeong-su speak.

"Jeong-su..." I said and sighed out of relief. "I'm sorry. I told Sunny not to talk any calls from anyone."

"It's okay. May I come to your office right now?" He asked.

"Ah, sure. Just tell Sunny you have an appointment." I said.

"Great. I'll buy you coffee." He said and ended the call.

After a few minutes of reading these documents, I heard someone knock on my door, and I was greeted by Jeong-su's warm smile, and the iced coffee on his hand. He placed them on the coffee table, and I couldn't resist the coffee. I sat in front of him and drank the coffee.

"Thanks." I said.

"No problem." He replied, but looking at him right now, I know he feels uneasy. "Taeyeon..." He called, and I looked at him. "Can I ask you a favor?"

"Ah, sure. What is it?" I said while reading the document I brought with me. 

"What happened between you and Chanyeol?" He said, and I almost forgot, he's Chanyeol's brother. "You know what? Forget I asked that. Are you dating someone else?"

"Jeong-su, I..." The words wouldn't come out of my mouth.

"It's okay if you don't like my brother. I'd understand." He said and smiled. "I mean, that's the reason I left, right?"

"Jeong-su, I'm sorry." I said and he smiled at me again.

"Don't apologize to me." He said and stood up. "And one more thing."

"What is it?"

"Please avoid Byun Baekhyun at all cost." He said and went to the door.

I held his hand to stop him from going out. "Why? Who is he, anyway?"

"It's not my story to tell, Taeyeon. Why don't you ask him directly? Then the decision is yours." He said and left me speechless.