Killers: Taeyeon

Taeyeon: 27

I was here an hour ago, and I saw Tiffany's face full of tears. I ran towards her and stopped in front of her. She faced me, and hugged me tightly. I don't know what's happening to her. Have I been so absorbed in my own world, that I forgot I had friends? I wish I wasn't selfish, then I would've known what happened to them.

"Let's celebrate!" Tiffany ran towards the gate. I just followed her and had the staff carry all my bags.

When I arrived at the plane, she quickly sat down and one of the staff placed the bottle of champagne on the table. The rest of the staff remained seated, and the plane took off. After a while, Tiffany walked towards me and handed me a glass of champagne. I smiled at her and rejected the offer. She just shrugged and sat down.

"I almost murdered someone..." That took me by surprise! I looked at her, and she smiled faintly. "I mean, I didn't know she was pregnant. I attacked her out of anger, out of instinct, and out of jealousy."

"Who?" I have a hunch, and I hope I'm wrong.

"Victoria Song." My shoulders dropped.

"What happened?"

"We had a cat fight. She didn't fight back, but I pushed her too hard." She looked at me with face full of tears. "But you know what? She just forgave me." I don't know what to tell her, so I just kept quiet. "She told me if it hadn't been for me, her baby won't live. She saw the good in me, when all I saw in her was her bad side. All because I couldn't accept the fact that Edison isn't mine anymore." She drank her champagne and cried harder. "I apologized to her for the last time and told her I'll be in California."

"You're headed for New York!" I told her.

"She doesn't need to know. That's none of her business." I wrapped my arms around her. "And besides, it's half meant. I won't be going home after this event in New York. I'll stay in Cali for a very long time."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes." I just nodded at what she said.

*

We arrived in New York, and I rode a cab to the hotel. We have a place in New York, but I'll be there after the event. I just want to enjoy my time alone. I went to my room and quickly lied down the bed. The bed is so massive, and it feels so empty. No, cut the crap, Taeyeon! I was used to being alone, and the bed in my room was obviously bigger than this! Why do I find this unusual now?

I ordered room service. I ate in the plane ride, but I still feel hungry. When the food arrived, I thanked the staff, and quickly got out of my room. I stared at the buffet in front of me. I have pizza, steak, burgers, fries, garden salad and milkshake in front of me. I stood up and went to the mini-fridge inside the hotel room. I saw some champagne, expensive wines and water. Well, I guess I won't be needing alcohol.

I turned on the TV and watched whatever was on. I ate the steak with the salad, and I swear, I don't care if anyone thinks I'm a pig. I am really hungry, and I don't know why. I drank my milkshake as I scrolled down the newsfeed on my Instagram. As usual, my pictures are bombarded with likes and comments such as "we miss you, Taeyeon" or "let's meet up when you can". Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against people trying to get close to me. But it just feels weird.

I took a photo of the hotel room I am staying at, and posted it on instagram. And out of boredom, I checked on it, and again, people were liking it. I mean, I'm not gonna lie. I'm not a celebrity, but Tiffany, Seohyun and I are pretty popular. Maybe because of our social status? I don't know. But unlike Tiffany, I don't like too much attention. She likes being noticed, but gets annoyed sometimes. I, on the other hand, don't enjoy it at all. Seohyun? Well, she's not enjoying it, but she's using it for her small-scale businesses and large-scale businesses.

After pigging out, I got bored again. Then I remembered the event. I opened one bag and checked out the dresses I bought. I have decided to wear the red dress since I couldn't decide. My phone rang, and I glanced at the screen to see who's calling. It's dad!

"Dad?" I answered his call immediately.

"You're in New York, right?"

"Yes dad."

"And you know about the party."

"Yes dad."

"Good. Take care of yourself. You have less security right now because you're in New York." He still cares.

"I will dad, thanks." I smiled at his small gesture.

"Okay. I just called to check on you." And he ended the call.

I can't believe my dad called! I thought he went back to being the uncaring dad again. Not that I'm complaining, it's just... I don't know? It feels wonderful. I placed the dresses back to the bag and lied down. Not everything about me went great. But aren't I lucky? I mean, my life isn't perfect, but I still have a dad who now cares about me, two best friends whom I know will always be there for me.

But sometimes, I can't help but feel emotional. Especially because even if I keep on lying to myself, and to everyone else, I know... I'm still very much in love with Baekhyun. And it sucks because I pushed him away. I know he let go of me first, but he told me he loved me, right? My ego got the best of me.

But maybe I did the right thing? Because that girl who was with him... Well, I hope she's happy with him. I can't have him, so at least he should be happy, right? Even if I won't be the reason for it. And even if it meant me hurting for a very long time. She's pregnant, and I can compromise for the benefit of other people. I'm already used to it, anyway.