Killers: Taeyeon

Taeyeon: 34

It's been a month since they transferred us here in Seoul, and I am doing fine now. I am still depressed about my hair, but it will grow again. I am worried about Baekhyun, though. I haven't gone out of my room ever since I got here. How am I still alive again? Because for the nth time, people tried to kill me, and yet they spared my life. The door opened, and Seohyun entered the room with Tiffany.

"What are you doing here?" I asked her, but she went to me and gave me a tight hug.

"This time, I'm gonna make sure you're safe!" She said and let go of me. She stared at my face for a while, and it's making me feel uncomfortable and embarrassed. "What have they done to you?"

"Well, my hair will grow eventually." I said and sighed.

She just looked at me with pity. "I'm sorry I wasn't here for you when you were in pain." I just nodded.

It was totally fine. I knew that she needed to find herself. It was okay with me. I can't rely on them all of my life. I should be independent, and I should start now. I'm gonna miss being with them, but after knowing my dad isn't my biological father, I have to leave his house. I have to live as Kim Taeyeon. Not as Kim Young-min's stepdaughter, or the weakest girl. I have to be strong somehow.

Seohyun is busy talking to the security staff, and Tiffany did the same with her security staff. I am extremely grateful that they're my best friends, but I have to do this. I have to leave while I still can. Because I'm afraid that if I don't leave soon, I'm gonna get used to them baby sitting me. And I know that they can't protect me forever. Pretty soon, they're gonna start their lives without me, and my dad will eventually want me out of his house.

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I told the security that I will just visit a friend. Two out of four followed me on the way to Baekhyun's room. I just let him because I can't make them think I'm doing weird stuff, or else, they'll report it to their boss. When I reached his room, I told them to wait for me outside my room since I'll be here all night. They hesitated, but I told them he's my boyfriend. They both nodded, and I entered the room.

I saw Baekhyun's beautiful face all bruised up. I walked closer to him, hoping I don't wake him up. I sat on the chair close to his bed, and caressed his cheek. I hope I could kiss all the pain away. I leaned closer to him, and planted a soft peck on his forehead. I could give up anything for him, but for now, I need to give everything up for myself. This might be my most selfish decision yet, but I'm doing this for everyone.

"I'll miss you..." I said as I sat down. "I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass."

It took me by surprise when he opened his eyes and looked at me. He smiled at me and I smiled back at him. He tried sitting up, but I stopped him. I just held his hand and kissed it. I'm really gonna miss him.

"I came to say goodbye." I said, and the smile on his face faded.

"Goodbye?"

"Yes." I said and held his hand tighter. "See you when I see you."

"When will you be back?" His voice was shaky.

"I... I don't know." I shrugged. "Days? Probably months? I don't know. It's indefinite."

"I'm sorry... for not being able to protect you." He kissed my hand. "And sorry if I was weak."

"I should be the one saying that." I playfully smacked his arm. Good thing there wasn't a bruise. "Bye, Baekhyun."

I let go of his hand, and walked away from him. When I stepped out of his room, I looked around. Fortunately, they did what I instructed. I went to the restroom and took off my lab gown. I'm wearing a white shirt, black shorts and black flipflops. I can't look fancy now. I need to get out of this hospital quickly. I went to my unit and stayed there.

I took out my phone (which was conveniently placed on my shorts) and texted dad, Seohyun and Tiffany. This may be a little dramatic, but I have to do this, or they'll think I'm kidnapped again. I don't need them to be alarmed for the nth time.

To dad:

Dad, I'm sorry I left the hospital. I have to find myself. I promise, I'll come back as someone better. I'm sorry if this is so sudden. But after knowing a lot of things, I am really confused. We may not have the best relationship, but I can guarantee you, I never held any anger or hatred against you. As a matter of fact, I am really thankful. Even though you're not my real father, you did not leave me in the streets to die. I love you, dad. Sorry, and thank you.

To Tiffany:

Hey... I'm sorry I ran away from the hospital. Thank you for coming back for me, and I'm sorry if I have been selfish. I promise, I'll come back when I'm better. And I understand that you need the time to heal yourself. Please do that instead. I love you, Tiff. You and Seo will always be my best friends. I'm sorry, and thanks for everything.

To Seohyun:

Hi, thanks for everything, Seo. Thank you for all the times we spent together. And I'm sorry for leaving again. I just need to find myself. I know you'll understand me. Be healthy, and be well. I love you so much, Seohyun. You and Tiffany will always be my best friends. I love you both so much. I'll miss you two. I'm sorry and thank you.

After sending my texts to them, the first person to call was Tiffany. I am still packing my clothes, but I rejected her call and turned my phone off. If I truly wanna leave, I can't let them track me. After packing all the clothes I'll need, I took out my savings and my wallet. I left my credit cards and car keys in this unit.

I took a cab to the airport. I booked a flight towards the one place where no one would suspect my existence there. I've only been there once, and I never had the chance to return. When my flight was booked, I sat down in one of the plastic chairs. I'm waiting for my flight. I need to do this. I have to do this.

When my flight was announced, I walked towards the gates. I looked back, hoping nobody saw me. Nobody was here. Good. I walked towards the plane, while the staff took my bags. I can't believe I'm this sure about leaving. As I entered the plane, I looked for my seat. Fortunately, not a lot of people are going to London. I won't be there for long, though. I'll go back to Korea because I know that eventually, they will have a lead about me. Goodbye, Kim Taeyeon. You'll be better, I'm sure.