A Taste Of Second Romance [COMPLETED]

ELEVEN

ELEVEN

VIANE DREA SILVA

"Wakey-wakey, baby Vivi."

Bumalikwas ako ng bangon dahil sa boses ni Kellan. What the fuck! Was that a dream? Kellan and I had sex. Was that only a dream?

Tiningnan ko ang ilalim ng kumot and I saw myself wearing nothing! My mouth formed a big 'O' when I looked at Kellan who's also looking at me closely. "What?"

"It's not a dream." I said. He just looks at me confusingly, like he was curious about everything.

He raised his eyebrows. "What dream?"

"Oh, my God! I thought it was only just a dream!" I exclaimed.

"What dream did you had? You dreamt about me?"

I cupped his face and nodded like child. "I had a dream which was actually true and it already happened. I had a dream that we had sex pero totoo pala iyon!"

He still looks confused. "Uh, so after we did it, you dreamed about us having sex again? Is that it?"

"Probably," I am still in shock. I put my nails inside my mouth. That was so weird. I remember how we had sex earlier today and I thought it was only a dream when in fact, it's not. It's like I had a dream about something exactly that actually happened to me. Damn. My system is so weird.

I remember how we made love. His touch. His kisses. His movements. The pleasure. The pain were all so familiar to me.

Nagising ako sa katotohanan nang hawakan ni Kellan ang magkabilang braso at hinalikan ang kanan kong balikat. "Hey, you seem tense. Tell me, are you upset that it's not just a dream? Did you regret it?"

I looked at him but looked away. "No." I honestly answered. Mahal ko si Kellan kaya hindi ko pinagsisisihang binigay ko sa kanya ang importanteng bagay para sa akin. I looked at him and smiled. "I didn't regret it at all."

He just nodded and leaned in to kiss me. "Thank you, Viane. I love you so much."

I felt a tear fell from my eyes. I quickly wiped it away and stifle a small laugh. "Mahal rin kita, Kellan," I looked down. My heart sanking as tears started to roll again.

"Hey, hey, hey. Why are you crying?" he asked, still hugging me. He caressed my back to keep me down from crying.

"I'm scared... Ayaw ko ng masaktan. I want to love again but there's part of me na ayaw ko. Sinaktan mo ako, Kellan, and I don't know if I could trust or love you better now." I inhaled a deep breath, calming myself down. "Sinabi ko sa sarili ko noon na, hinding-hindi na kita mamahalin ulit. I tried to hold back pero ang tibay mo eh. Hindi ka talaga papatalo, ano?"

He chuckled. "I told you to don't fight your feelings. Let it all out." He kissed my temple. "I'm so sorry, Viane. I'm so sorry for hurting you. I'm so damn sorry, please let me correct all my mistakes in the past. Let me love you all over again."

I pulled away from his embrace. He cupped my head and kissed me so softly I can barely feel his lips.

-

Two months passed.

Kasalukuyan akong nagbibihis ng damit. Kahit masakit ang chuchu ko dahil kay Kellan, bihis pa rin ako. Niyaya niya kasi akong lumabas. Nag-away pa kami kanina na ako ang pipili ng sariling damit ko but he insisted. Ayaw niya na lalabas ako ngayon na nakashorts and heels. Eh 'yun naman ang gusto ko. Pinasuot niya sa akin ang isang blue denim polo na itinaas ko hanggang siko, knee ripped jeans and converse. Inilugay ko lang ang sobrang itim kong buhok. Itim na itim talaga siya hindi gaya noon na reddish-brown. My hair now is darker than black. Bagay na bagay sa skin ko. Naglagay ako ng kaunting make-up at lipstick bago lumabas.