A Taste Of Second Romance [COMPLETED]

TWENTY TWO

Why did this happened again?

Those feelings and thoughts from the past came back. It was dwelling in my skin I was afraid I would freak out without any control. This felt exactly like it was before, but there is a little tiny difference.

It's not having sex. It's a bigger responsibility for a man to do.

It was not her. It was a different girl.

Kung noon ay galit at poot ang naramdaman ko, ngayon ay sobra ang galit at poot ang aking nararamdaman.

Ang sakit isipin na baka iwan kami ng anak ko ni Kellan for his other family. Ang sakit isipin na maging isa akong single parent. Pero mas masakit isipin na wala maging kilalang ama ang magiging anak ko.

What if my child would find a male figure? Or someone who would protect her aside from me? I couldn't afford to answer that without Kellan.

Kaya lalaban ako. I was weak before and doubted Kellan's love for me. But now, mag-iiba na.

I'll fight for him. Hindi ko hahayaang mapunta sa Meg na 'yun ang lalaking mapapangasawa ko. Hinding-hindi.

Kung mahal ka, babalikan ka. At kapag bumalik sa'yo, 'wag mo na muling bitiwan pa.

Hindi lang ito para sa akin, kundi para rin kay baby.

And besides, sabi ni Corbin, hindi si Kellan ang ama ng batang dinadala niya. Sana nag-iilusyon lang ang inggiterang 'yun!

His hands were being cupped on my face as he wiped the tears on my cheek. "Baby, come on. Tell me what's wrong?"

Umiling ako at yumuko. "Nothing."

"You're lying,"

"Walang poblema, Kellan," I chuckled. "I think this is just the pregnancy symptoms. You know, getting moody all the time,"

Nagsalubong ang kilay niya. "You sure?"

"Yup. Wala namang poblema. In fact, masayang-masaya nga ako eh."

Kasinungalingan! Hindi ako masaya, Kellan! Potang ina ka! Sana mapansin mo!

He smiled. He tilted his head up to plant a kiss on my forehead. "Good to hear that."

Manhid ang gago. I knew it.

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Ako'y kasalukuyang nagbabasa ng libro tungkol sa mga buntis. Mga do's dont's pati na rin ang mga healthy para maging malusog ang ina at ang baby. Habang si Kellan naman ay may inaatupag sa laptop niya.

Pero iba ang binabasa ko ngayon.

I was on the page about sexual intercourse during pregnancy.

Is it safe to have sex while pregnant?

Most women who are having a normal pregnancy may continue to have sex right up until their water breaks or they go into labor. You won't hurt the baby by making love...

Weh? I thought you'll hurt the baby when you have during pregnancy?

Hmm...

Will sex feel different when pregnant?

Many women report that sex feels different during pregnancy. Some find it more pleasurable, at least at times. Others may generally find it less so, for part or all of the pregnancy.

Increased blood flow to the pelvic area can cause engorgement of the genitals. The heightened sensation that results may add to your pleasure during sex. You may have more vaginal discharge or moistness, which could also be a plus.