A Taste Of Second Romance [COMPLETED]

TWENTY EIGHT

It has been a month since the talk about Meg. Thankfully, hindi na umaalis si Kellan sa tabi ko gaya noon. But hell, he was really in lying. He looked convincing enough when he lies kaya hindi ko agad iyon napapansin.

But that was already in the past. We sought things out for the both of us and for the baby. And of course, he also explained to me everything. Meg and him didn't have a serious relationship, it was just a one night stand followed by another.

Honestly, I felt mad and jealous when he still had sex with women habang andito siya sa amerika. Kahit pa siguro noon pa 'yun at hindi na muli mangyayari ay nagseselos pa rin ako. Ayaw kong may ibang makatikin sa asawa ko no.

Sana rin ay magkaayos na sina Meg at Corbin. And sana, hindi anak ni Kellan ang batang dinadala ni Meg.

Okay naman ang lahat sa akin. Sinasamahan niya ako every month para magpacheck-up. I was already three months pregnant and the baby was healthy. Mabuti naman malusog ang anak ko kahit hindi masyado healthy ang kinakain ko. 

The only problem I had was...

I feel like I was getting fatter as each day passes. Lumalaki ang dibdib ko at ang mga braso ko. Tumaba talaga ako!

I shifted my body sideways and looked at myself in the mirror. Three months palang akong buntis pero malaki na ang tiyan ko.

Pero I feel so conscious and insecure. Habang tumataba ako, mas lalo akong nahihiya maglambing kay Kellan. Baka kasi ayaw niya dahil sa katawan ko. Hindi na rin kami nakakapag-talik dahil ayaw niya. Takot lang daw niya na baka may mangyaring masama kay baby.

Pero pakiramdam ko talaga ay dahil sa katawan ko. I know Kellan! He liked sexy and hot chicks more than fat chickens!

I don't know why but I felt myself tearing up. Naiiyak ako. When I get even fatter, Kellan would lose interest on me. When he loses his interest on me, he would look for another girl. When he does that, mag-aaway kami. Kung mag-aaway kami palagi dahil sa pambababae niya, maghihiwalay kami.

"NOOOOOOO!!!!!"

"Viane," tawag ni Kellan na kakapasok lamang sa kwarto namin dito sa pamamahay nila. "Anong nangyari?"

"Wala..." I pouted even more.

Lumapit siya sa akin at pinaharap ako sa kanya. "Sabihin mo. May masakit ba sa'yo?" he inspected my body as if there was something to be afraid of.

"Eh kasi..." tinuro ko ang sarili ko sa repleksyon ng salamin. I looked so horrible I couldn't even stand staring at myself longer.

"Ang taba ko na." malungkot kong sabi.

Malakas siyang humalakhak sa sinabi ko. Nakayakap siya sa akin habang tumatawa. "Oo nga!"

"Gago ka!" sigaw ko.

Inipit niya ang ulo sa leeg ko para pigilan ang halakhak niya. Nang tumigil siya ay bigla niya akong hinalikan sa labi.

"Oo, baby, tumataba ka nga," nakangiti niyang saad.

I rolled my eyes at aalis na sana nang hablutin niya ang kamay ko at pinaharap muli sa salamin. He put his chin on my shoulder as he wrapped his arms around me and gently caressed my bump.

"Look at you, Viane. You looked so beautiful when you weren't pregnant. And now that you are, you looked even more beautiful because you carry our child. You looked more blooming because of our baby. If you think you're getting ugly and fat, think again and look at yourself. Ugliness is a failure of seeing."

Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya. "So mamahalin mo parin ako kahit na..."

"Kahit na sa tingin mo ay pumangit ka, tumaba ka, magka-wrinkles ka, stress ka na, akin ka parin. Akin ka lang at ikaw pa rin ang pinakamagandang babae sa mga mata ko."