The Wonderful Book Of Imagines

Marcus Butler 3

My whole being shook as sobs escaped my mouth. It was impossible. She can't... Not her. I could feel my world crash down and me sinking into its depths with no one to help me get out. I closed my eyes to find her there, perfect with a dazzling smile and glittering eyes. She was gorgeous. She was supposed to become Mrs. Butler. She was so still and pale, eyes looking like glass. She looked like a little porcelain doll. She was cold. She was dead. It was my fault she's gone. We had bought an apartment just for the both of us. We talked about buying a ginger cat and finally agreed on calling it Ed. We were planning to start a family, have a little boy, call him Theodore -Theo for short- and we'd call our little princess Elena. We'd make them travel the world, we'd teach them to chase their dreams, we'd tell them to do what they wanted since this was their life. But all of it was gone. I looked at the pale, still figure that would have been my fiancée. She looked as if she were asleep. If only. I sunk to my knees, tears streaming down my face. It was unbearable. I loved her and she was gone. No coming back. A hand clamped my shoulder and lifting up my eyes, I saw one of my best mates, Alfie. Pain filled his eyes as he looked at me. He also knew her well. I remember when I had introduced them to each other. He had pretended to be my boyfriend and was jealous of our relationship. They got on so well, I couldn't hope for more but I'd never doubted, everyone loved her. Alfie got me to my feet and took me into his arms bringing me outside. "You alright mate?" He asked looking concerned. "I... I feel like someone ripped out a part of me, the biggest." I choked out between sobs. "No one deserves that, but we know she was happy." Alfie tried to console. Y/N's dad came out and told us the ceremony would begin soon. Tears flooded his eyes but he was stronger and kept them in. For how long? I don't know. He clapped me on the shoulder before bringing me into a hug. "She loved you so much, son." He said, releasing me. He entered the hall and we followed. I sat down beside Alfie and her parents. Her mother was held by her father, in tears by the death of their daughter. The ceremony started and soon enough it was my time to talk. I walked to the podium and stared out to familiar and non-familiar faces. "Y/N. I loved her so much. I can't even describe how much I loved her. We were supposed to move in together next month, have a cat called Ed and start a life together. She was my life. Her smile could light up a room, brighten any grumps day. Her eyes sparkled like a thousand stars inhabited them. I wake up now, not knowing what to do with my life. I remember I felt as though my world crumbled and fell as the news was given to me about her death. Now, I only feel as though I'm following it, falling deeper and deeper with no one to pull me out. When we met, I thought to myself, I want to make her my wife." I said, tears falling from my eyes as I tried to formulate my sentences. I looked into the coffin, pulled out a little box and looked into her still face. "I've never told you this but I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly at first, and then all at once. I wanted to then ask you to be my wife and I would have prayed that you would have responded yes." I finished, not being able to formulate anything else. I took her left, cold hand and slipped a ring with many small diamonds on her fourth finger. "I love you."

A/N I'm sorry this is so depressing for an imagine I've just been listening to Troye Sivan's song about The Fault In Our Stars and I read the book and felt sad... I hope you liked it anyways!! - Mel xx