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chapter 18

Harrys pov

its been a week since me and ashton started hanging out and its been great

but im really paranoid...

when mw and louis you know...

last week I forgot all about my scars what if he saw them what if he knows.

other than that I've been trying my best to smile and a few time ashton actually made me smile.

we haven't come out as a couple yet but I have a interview tonight with the boys and I think I might do it tonight

"babe!" ashton yells as he walks through the door

I think its kind of early to be calling each other nicknames like babe but I don't want to say anything...

"hey" I jump off the couch to give him a quick hug before taking some of the bags from his hands

I start to go through the large plastic shopping bags but freeze at the small box that I accidentally picked up

"uhmm" was all I could say and I know that I was a deep shade of red

surprise was clear across his face

"oh I just got those just in case you know" I looks around the small kitchen

"uh yeah" I simply answer setting the small box of condoms on the table

"have you had sex?" the words are out of my mouth before I can stop them

"yes haven't you?" he asks me slightly confused

what should I say...

oh yes one night I got drunk and louis basically forced me into bed and then he slapped me the next morning blaming it on me

"no" I lie

"oh shit im sorry I should.." I cut him off

" I never said I didn't want my first time to be with you" I smirk

I feel slightly bad for lying but I don't want to keep remembering that night especially after that encounter I had with louis the other day

for the next fifteen minuets we continue putting away the rest of the stuff e bought and then I decide to get ready for the interview tonight

im in the middle of picking out my clothes when my phone rings and a picture of nialls bum shows up on the screen

"hey" I say casually into the phone

"hey we are bout 15 minutes away"

"okay is there room for ashton?" I question

"fuck no" I hear louis say in the background

"yeah just hurry we are almost there"

and with that I hang up.

around ten minuets later I get a text from niall letting me know they are here so me and ashton make are way down stairs.

when we get to the car I open the door to see niall and Liam in the very back and a very unpleased louis on the far left in the middle row so this means im going to have to sit in the middle of the man I love and my boyfriend

should I even call him the man I love because he's also broken my heart many times

he notices my presents and scans my body up and down and smirks slightly at my uncomfortable expression

he knows what he's doing to me

he's messing with me

don't let him get to you