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chapter 27

Harrys pov

sadness hits me.

I know that ashton raped me..but I think it was my fault. so why would he go to jail for something I deserved.

its the next day and me and Lou are leaving the hospital

"louis"

"harry"

"harry are you cheating"

"what happened"

"what did ashton do" the pap's scream desperately, shoving cameras and lights in me and louis' face.

louis arm wraps protectively around me to pull me closer and we both slide around the pap's without one word. once we get to the car I finally speak

"lets go out" I want to forget everything, I want to let loose

"where?"

"the club" I roll my eyes like it was the most obvious thing in the world

"Okay"

*later on at the club*

sweaty bodies grinding together.

I wiggle my way through the crowd to me and louis spot where we have taken many shots and gotten very drunk.

"hey girl heyyyyy" I wave as I approach him

"hiii" he smirks

fuck he's hot I just want to lick his face and taste the delicious sweat dripping down his face.

"can I lick you"

"NO" he holds his face protectively

"why wont you share!" i whine he's rude

"lets dance" he smirks

"well that was a weird turn of events but okay"

louis grabs my hand and leads me into the crowd of sweaty people. we walk to the middle and begin to dance like the other sweaty horny people.

I begin to grind my hips and I hear a soft grunt escape his lips. I feel louis hands rest in the back pockets of my jeans, and he pulls me closer but doesn't remove his warm delicious hands

we do this for awhile until I grow tired
"lets goo" I whine and stumble over landing on my butt

"stop whining" his face turns cold. im speechless and honestly scared to talk

"why the fuck are you mad!" my anger grows but its really hard to keep my cool when im ass face drunk he doesn't answer he just grabs my hand and pulls me out of the club.

i can literally hear my ears sing happily as we escape the loud ass music

i giggle out loud. we get into the car and spend the whole car ride silent.

when we get inside the apartment its pitch black and the light switch is to far.

a wobble to the couch but in the process topple over something really large. like louis' dick

"hey who put that there!" i scream but there's no answer

"okay thanks" i answer to nothing

the lights turn on and im faced with a very pissed off louis

"i thought you wanted me, you cant just play me like that" he spits

"what" im utterly confused.. what did i do?

"don't act dumb"

"don't call me names" my anger grows

" i saw you when you were getting are drinks, you were being a slut and flirting with some dick"

i try to remember to when i was getting are drinks. my mind eventually goes to some blonde dude

"i wasn't flirting" i laugh "he asked me to dance and i said no i have a boyfriend"

his face calms and before i know what im doing i slam my lips onto his. i move my hand to his hair and pull, im granted with a light moan. louis moves his hands to my waist but eventually rests on my bum. i move my hands to his shirt and in what feels like 2 seconds we are both naked except are underwear. laying on the couch making out.

am i ready for this?

i was just raped like a not even half a weekago

what if he does the same?

hes going to hurt me

i shove him roughly by his shoulders so he tumbles off of me. curling into a ball i begin to sob and shake

louis moves closer "No please don't hurt me!" i scream

"your going to hurt me like him"

"no i wont" he pleas

"yes you will leave i never want to see you again! why do you even want me" im shaking even harder and i know im about to have a panic attack

"louis" he starts to come closer "we can go through hell and id still want to be with you. ill stick through the good and the bad. just don't let go and ill be here"

"im disguising I still feel him all over me.. the way he scratched me and smacked me. the way he whispered horrible things into my ears and then slammed into me, i even remember how after he was done he just threw me to the ground like trash. because that's what i am, i don't deserve to live. im disguising, i deserved what he did" tears are wetting my t-shirt and i see a few escape louis' eyes also

"your perfect, and trust me you do not deserve what he did to you" he sits next to my and lays my head on his lap

"im the opposite of perfect" i whisper the truth

"your smile is actually the most perfect thing in the world. when i see you smile, my heart skips a beat, my stomach flips, and i cant help but stare.it is my favorite thing in the world , seeing you smile. You have no idea how adorable you are. i could get lost in your eyes. your curves make me drool and your bum . your twenty different hair styles, your weird faces, your dimples, you. you are perfect. you are my world."

i don't answer i just melt in his arms and stay like that until sleep reaches me, and i know for a fact i have a smile on my face as i sleep.

heyyyyy so sorry this was crap at the beginning but what did you think??????? im running out of ideas but you guys never comment your opinion :(-love harryxoxlouis