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chapter 35

louis' pov

{read authors not at the end its really important}

i hold harrys skinny body in my arms. he just looks so unhealthy its killing me.

"hey haz" i whisper

"yes Lou"

"whats wrong with you" the words come out before i cant stop them. i can practically hear his thoughts running everywhere trying to comprehend what i just said, yes it was blunt and if i could take it back i probably would but i cant.

harrys pov

{throughout the period him and louis weren't together}

its the most agonizing thing Ive ever been through, hes my drug and with out it im nothing but a piece of shit.

i haven't been eating and i don't plan too, im fat. maybe that's why louis doesn't love me anymore

i grab at my arm quickly itching the few cuts Ive already made. but i need more relief

i push myself of the ground of my bedroom and slowly make my way back to my bathroom. retrieve the small box and a bandage and sit on the cold toilet seat.

i pull out the shiny piece of metal and examine it before letting a few tears escape bringing it to my wrist and slowly gliding it across my wrist ten times . the blood quickly begins to flow, staining my clothes and my floor but i don't notice

"more!" i scream at myself before bringing the blade to my legs and doing another 10 on each. my hands are shaking, my eyes are burning but still the only thing on my mind is louis and until that goes away im going to keep going, so i do i slice until my mind is fuzzy.

so im left with ten on each wrist, ten on each leg, and five on my right hip.

and that's how it goes every single day with out him. i lay in my bed and listen to my body scream for food, and then i cut until my mind goes blank.

{end of flashback}

louis pov

"what?" his small voice finally reply's

"your very pale and skinny haz" i say in a calm tone not trying to make in sound judgmental. but he looks hurt

"you think im ugly?" tears well in his eyes

"no no no baby" rubbing his back soothingly "but i can feel your spine through your shirt" i chock out "whats going on harry, why would you hurt your body like this"

"you" he whispers out almost to quietly to hear but i do and i immediately fill with guilt

"what"

"you let me leave, thinking you didn't love me" he whispers in a ball almost emotionless

"but i do love you"trying to convince him

"now" he whispers "now you love me, after you saw how hurt i was. i know your just here out of guilt"

"no baby of course i love you, i always have" i pull him closer but it still feels like we are a million miles apart

"then why did you let me leave"

{authors note}

heyy so this wasnt that long obviously but its because the next chapter is going to be supper long but im not posting the next chapter till i get 5 votes #sorrynotsorry oh yeah and the next chapter will be supper long because [cryface] its the last chapter ahhhhhhhhhhhhh but comment if you want a sequel!-love harryxoxlouis