The way she makes me feel

Suspicion

"Nichole has been acting different lately. Is it me? Did I do something to her? She's been pulling herself away from me more and more I.....don't.......know.....what.......to.......do." I said crying my eyes out to my best friend. Zora hugged me tightly and told me it was okay but as I cried I knew what Nichole and I shared was long gone and couldn't be saved or salvaged at this point. "Thank you I needed someone to vent to. I've missed you Zor." I said as I sipped my glass of wine. "I know I've missed you too. I'm here for good!" Zora said I cheered up a little bit knowing that my best friend would be here for good instead of in New Orleans.
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I finally got back home to see my beautiful girlfriend cooking dinner for her to be a stud her body was very feminine I just stood there and admire how beautiful she was with her dreads pulled up in a bun , how her strong arms are but gentle at the same time, her strong jawline, her tight abs, her plump ass I bite my lip looking at her all of a sudden I get giddy with excitement like a little school girl I walk up to her and hug her and stand up so I can kiss her the way she kissed me made me melt but the look in her eyes confirmed my biggest fear.....her heart belonged to someone else and it hurt.
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"How's the food? Why aren't you talking like usual? What's on your mind babyface?" Nichole asked me I looked away to keep from crying and replied "The food is amazing as always. I just have a lot on my mind that's all." "Okay? Like what? Talk to me whatever is bothering you I want to know please tell me." She said very concerned......I couldn't bear the thought of asking her so I got up and kissed her forehead "It's nothing." I said walking away to take a hot shower and cry until I was completely numb from it all. I love Nichole with every breath in my body, every fiber in my being,and to the depths of my soul. I can't bear to live without her in my life the more I mourn this relationship the more reality is knocking at my door that what I feel is happening....I'm losing her.