The way she makes me feel

Heartless

I walk out the doctors office at a fast pace "I can't believe you gave me an std!" I said in a hush tone she ignored me and kept walking to the car "Do you hear me?!" I semi yelled looking at her with anger she was so nonchalant about the whole thing it was aggravating I got in the car slamming the door "It's not that big of a deal ,you knew how I was before we got together. Plus you have medicine so you're good ma." Nic said looking at me. Is she serious right now without hesitation I slapped her she looked surprised and chuckled "How many people have you been with?" I asked in a low tone "eh" she said shrugging her shoulders and started to drive home I looked out the window regretting the day I opened my self to her emotionally, mentally, and most important intimately.
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"Haven't I told you before not to put your hands on me?" Nic asked with aggression in her voice I was honestly scared she stood over me towering it was so intimidating before I could answer my face was stinging from her slap I fell to the ground she started to kick me repeatedly I cried out in pain she picked me up by my neck and threw me against the wall she came beside of me kneeling down "Don't ever question or hit me again." She said her voice was so dark and cold it made my body shiver. I watched her walk into the room I cried thinking how could I let this happen to me.
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"Mmmm mami" I moaned as Bre was fingering me she always brought the fem out in me I didn't mind it though. "I'm about to cuuuuu!" I screamed gripping her hair arching my back closing my eyes in ecstasy. "Damn" I said as I finally started to calm down she smiled I just looked at her in amazement I wanted her to be mine but I wasn't going to pressure her if this isn't something that she wants. I took and deep breath trying to relax my nerves before I started talking to her finally I mustered up enough courage "Bre I need to talk to you." I said very serious and concerned she quickly sat up waiting for me to finish. "Camille came in today for an exam Nic was with her......she contracted an std. When was the last time you was with Nicole?" I asked cautiously. "About 7 months ago, do I need to get checked?" She asked scared. "No baby you're fine." I laughed. "Come here." I said to her holding her hand she laid her head on my chest "I promise not to hurt you, you make me want to change my ways honest. I want to be with you and only you." I told her kissing the top of her head she hugged me and slowly started to drift off to sleep in my arms I just held her as we laid on my couch. At this moment I knew that I could make her happy a lot happier than Nicole she deserves the world I want to be the one to give it to her for her I would be her everything and more if she would only let me and stop pushing away from me.