The way she makes me feel

Is this it?

It's been about a month and a half since I've talked to to Nic the way she treated me that night I still can't get over it. She's contacted me numerous times but I don't know what to say to her so I've just ignored her. I miss her so much not the whole attempt at sex either just her being a friend and someone I could talk to and joke with life sure is dull without Nic and her crazy ass jokes. "Okay La'Brea Aubree Wilson stop all this sulking and call her " I mentally scolded myself I sat there and looked at my phone for a good 5 minutes I don't know what came over me but I dialed her number "Bre?!" Nic answered excitedly "Yeah.....yeah it's me Nic?" I asked "Yes." "Come over please?"I asked nervously "on my way." She said hanging up. I got excited like a school girl I took a shower made sure I was smelling good as I'm putting on clothes I feel strong arms wrap around me I knew it was Nic because I was fairly short compared to her I laid my head on her chest I felt at ease this is where I felt love , acceptance, happiness, and peace here in her arms I felt at home as I turned around her expression wasn't what I expected " La'Brea........Michelle cheated on me." Nic said with her head down. "What does that have to do with me?" I asked with an attitude. "Nothing I......just needed a friend. I thought her leaving I would be happy but I just feel empty." She said with her head down. Instantly I felt bad for having an attitude I hugged her "Go sit down I'll be in there in a minute."
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As I sit there and listen to her tell me exactly what happened I couldn't help but think how better I could treat her if she just gave me a chance instead of running from the fact that I'm a stud only thing it is honestly is nothing but a label, why can't she be in love with me as I am with her? I thought to myself. "Bre? La'Brea? Are you listening to me?" Nic asked slightly annoyed. "Yes Nic I heard everything you said. You need to leave her take a break start to know the new you because the more you stay in this relationship the more sad and depressed your going to get." I said as I got up to get some tea "tea?" I asked her as I turned around she was standing behind with nothing but lust and love in her eyes. I wanted to kiss her with everything in me just to show her what real love is but I knew she was vulnerable so I didn't I just turned away. "Nicole I think you should leave." I said with my head down. She sucked her teeth and walked out. I want to be the one she loves not her experiment I thought to myself as I went to my room to lay down and cry myself to sleep.....again.