Idols and Anchors [Austin Carlile]

Chapter 7 - Damned If I Do Ya, Damned If I Don't

All I could see with my eyes closed were fireworks. My stomach felt like it was floating and I felt like I was in space. Kissing him was the only time I ever felt like this and I loved the feeling. I don't want to pull away but I can't kiss back. This feels so wrong yet so very right. Someone kill me now.

ahem.

I pulled away from Austin quickly and looked down to my feet. I didn't want to even see who looked at us. "I leave for five minutes and you two are already all on each other." I could tell it was Alan's voice. I'm glad it was him and no one else.

"No Alan, it was my fault. I should've never done that. I just- got so happy. She said everything was okay."

"No, I didn't mean it like that. Everything isn't okay, but I'm done pretending like it is. I want everything to be fine and I just hope that letting you back in, things can get better. I don't want to suffer not being in your life anymore because I do miss you. A lot. I miss our friendship and I miss your hugs. I miss you Austin."

In less than two seconds, I was scooped up into Austin's arm getting a huge hug from him. I haven't felt this content in years while being sober. I missed it. I miss feeling happy and Austin makes me feel that way. Alcohol could take the pain away for a few hours but once I was sober again, I was miserable. I'm happy I brought him back into my life. I feel like things could start finally going my way.

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After that morning, things felt so much better. I wasn't as anxious and nervous walking around like I was before. I went to watch the guys play and they put a kick ass show like always. Then not much later Austin invited me to watch Of Mice & Men side stage and they are actually pretty amazing. I never really listened to their music before but I have to admit they were pretty good.

After their set, Alan smiled and gave me a quick hug, which was kinda gross since he was all sweaty. Then Austin followed behind him and as he was passing by me he kinda... hit my ass. I was a little taken back by this and I didn't know what to do. I pretty much just stood there, trying to grasp what just happened. I don't even know what to say right now.

I ran over to Alan once he was cleaned up. I had to tell him because I literally don't know what to do right now.

"Don't sweat it Hails. Austin does that to all of us once he comes off stage. It was most likely a mistake, I wouldn't worry about it if I were you." I guess that helped somewhat but I was still a little shocked he did it. Maybe it wasn't a mistake. Maybe I'm worried for nothing.

I started walking towards our bus but before I made it, I felt an arm go around my shoulder. I looked up at Austin, I could tell once again by that cologne.

"How'd you like our set? I couldn't tell by your facial expressions. You seemed dazed off." Austin practically just said he was watching me as he was performing. I never even noticed him. I was paying more attention to the music and the crowd than I was at the guys. I always like watching how the crowd reacts to the music and to their favorite songs being played. The fans really enjoy them and it makes me smile when they cheer and go crazy for them.

"Oh, yeah. You guys are really good. I really enjoyed it. You guys put on an amazing show. You're all so energetic and I love how you get the crowd all pumped up. It was nice." He smiled widely at me. Oh God how I miss that smile. It was hypnotizing. I found myself watching his lips as he spoke. I missed him so much.

"Hey why don't you come with me. I want you to meet some friends of mine. I think they'll like you and they're a lot of fun." I wasn't very good at meeting new people but I mean how bad could they actually be?

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The second week of Warped finished tonight and we have our first day off tomorrow. I was excited to see what that day had in store. It was night time and for some reason, it was quite chilly outside, even though earlier it was hotter than the Sahara Desert.

Austin was leading me to meet his friends and I just hoped they were as cool as he says they are. I met Tino and Phil earlier this week and they were pretty nice. I liked them and they seemed to like me back.

We were coming up to a bus and I heard laughter inside. Austin knocked and Alan came to open the door. This wasn't his bus, what is he doing here? Alan pulled me onto the bus and I ended up in a room with four guys and I had no clue who they were.

"Hailey, this is Alex, Jack, Zack and Rian. This is All Time Low."

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The night was coming to an end. My night with the guys from ATL was pretty rad. They were some amazing funny dude and I was happy they were now close friends. We played some games and maybe got a little drunk but it was a nice time nonetheless. I learned quite a lot about these guys and I think they brought out the fun side of me. I haven't laughed that hard in so long and it felt so good. I have to thank them for that.

I was pretty hammered thanks to them though. I could barely find my way to the bus. I needed someone to take me there and I'm pretty sure Austin was the only sober one.

I stumbled off of their bus and tried walking to my own. I did end up tripping a few times, which only made me laugh. I felt myself being scooped up in a pair of arms. As I looked up I see Austin glancing down at me with a concerned face. I don't think he's ever seen me this drunk before. He carried me all the way to the bus and I suddenly got very tired.

"Thank you Austin. I had a fun night." He smiled at me.

"No problem Hailey. So did I. It was fun and I'm pretty sure the guys liked you. They only bring out the alcohol if they like someone." I chuckled and hiccupped. I'll probably forget this conversation in the morning but that's okay.

"It was fun hanging out with you too Austin. I really do miss you. I miss when we used to hang out as reckless teenagers. You let me live my life and I'm doing that again. I thank you for letting me have the most fun I've had in a long time." He smiled that huge smile that everyone loves. My heart melted and I couldn't help but smile back. He pulled me into a quick hug before walking away.

"Austin?"

"Yeah?"

I ran over to him and gave him a kiss. I don't know why I did that, or how I had the courage to do that, but it felt nice. He smiled at me again before leaning down and kissing my forehead.

"I missed you too Hails. Goodnight."

I managed to make it back to the bus and climb into bed. I'm glad this night happened but I'm glad I can finally have a good night rest. I hope our first day off tomorrow is as good as tonight was.

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Hey guys, so here's chapter 7. Sorry I took so long I wanted to do it after the concert so I can tell you guys how it went.

I posted a page that gives you the details of what happened at the concert. You guys should look at it and lets talk about your concert experiences too ^-^

So yes please check out that page.

I'll work on the next chapter soon c:

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