Idols and Anchors [Austin Carlile]

Chapter 16 - Mad At Myself (FINAL)

It's been two weeks since I moved to Florida. Things aren't really any better, in fact it might be a little worse. I've gotten constant calls from Jack and Austin but I'd only answer calls from Alex or Alan. I missed everyone terribly. Warped was finally over and in ten days OM&M's fall tour would start.

I know one of the dates was here in South Florida, in Ft. Lauderdale actually. But I don't think it'd be such a good idea to actually go. It'd be wrong to see them... I need to move on, right?

How could one be so confused? I just want things to be sorted out in my life, and the only way is if I stop complaining and get off my ass.

Alright Hailey, time to change your life around, and stop being a little bitch.

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Within a couple hours, the job I applied for called back and told me I was a new employee for Vans shoe store.

Funny how I just came back from Vans Warped Tour.

Alex is coming to visit me tomorrow as well, and I'm really excited because I really miss him. I actually hope he's bringing Jack. I need to see them incredibly bad.

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"Here you go ma'am, size 7 floral vans. Nice choice if I say so myself."

"I agree with that." I looked up and Alex stood over the girl, looking at her shoes.

She stared freaking out and I just laughed. She gave him a hug and after ten minutes she finally left.

Alex ran to me and gave me the biggest hug, one that I needed so bad. I laughed as he lifted me up and spun me around, continuing to hug me.

I cried into his chest for about five minutes because I was so happy. Luckily no one was in the store to bother us. I'm so happy he came to see me.

"Come on, let's get lunch." I clocked out and told Bryan and Lex I'd be back in an hour. They nodded towards me as I waved back to them.

Bryan was the chillest boss I ever had and Lex was one of the coolest girls I've ever met. Bryan let me do almost anything I wanted to do as long as I got my work done. He was a cool dude. And Lex, she's wonderful having shifts with and really nice to talk to.

Walking to the food court, I smelled a familiar cologne, along with seeing the skunk haired man sitting with Taco Bell on the table. That made me so happy.

"I've missed you guys so much. I wish I could come back with you guys."

"You could. It's never too late to come back." Jack smiled sadly at me.

"Jack I can't, I made a promise to myself that I won't fuck up anyone else's life. I will not break that promise."

"You're breaking that promise by staying down here and not on tour with us." Alex admitted.

"Or being with Austin." Jack whispered.

"Jack please don't bring him up. I don't want to go back to work crying."

"Well then you're about to burst into tears." Jack's eyes looked above me and I started hyperventilating.

The smell was intoxicating, I wanted to put my face in his chest and never let go of him. He was here and as sad as I was about it, I couldn't be more happier.

His face instantly went to my neck and I just wanted to engulf him in a hug so bad. "I missed you."

I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. I still loved him and I couldn't deny it.
"Stop crying," he whispered in my ear.