Idols and Anchors [Austin Carlile]

Chapter 15 - I'm Already Gone

~ Hailey's POV ~

    I heard the bus door open and saw Austin standing there with tears threatening to come out. Seeing him made me tear up.

"Austin."

    He walked over to the couch and sat, putting his face into his hands.

"How much of that did you hear?" Alex asked him.

"How could you Hails? And Jack? You're my friend, how could you do this to me?"

    He got up to walk away. "Austin wait! I came here to stop this and we only kissed twice. It didn't mean anything, I promise! Please Austin, you have to believe me."

"I don't want to hear it. Just give me time to think. Stay in another bus for a few weeks. Please. I'm sorry."

"No, I'm sorry Austin."

    He left the bus and I immediately broke down. Why am I so stupid? I lost the one thing I really loved over a stupid mistake. Why am I so god damn stupid?!

    The next week I was completely quiet. I didn't talk to anyone, I didn't want to see anyone either. However, Alex did come to check up on me every hour. I was very thankful that he cared enough to check on me. I wanted to know how Austin was or if Jack was doing okay. I missed Austin. I really hope he didn't hate me.

     I checked my phone and saw it was around the time Alex usually checks up on me. Suddenly the front door opened and I heard footsteps walking towards the bunks.

     The smell of coffee filled the air behind my curtain.

"Alex quit standing there please, you're creeping me out."

A hand pulled the curtain with a cup of coffee to give to me. I could tell it wasn't Alex's hand just from the tattoos. I gasped and tears started to fall again when he pulled back the curtain.

"Hails don't cry please. I just want to talk." He wiped the tears off my face and climbed into the bunk with me.

"Austin... I-"

"No just let me talk. I just want you to listen. I know what you did was a stupid, shitty mistake. I talked to Jack about it as well, and he hasn't really been himself. He's felt so guilty and hurt that he did that. He couldn't even act normal on stage. I told him not to worry, that I don't hate him, I don't hate you either. I love you Hailey and I don't want you to think that I don't want to be with you anymore. I know we can get past this."

    "Austin how?" I was practically sobbing at this point. I couldn't breathe and I was surprised I could make out words. "How can you forgive me? I acted stupid, what if there's a point where it happens again? I don't want you to hate me, and I don't want to hurt you again. Austin I love you and care for you so much that I don't want to be with you so I don't hurt you again. I can't do this. I can't put you through that pain anymore." I really couldn't control my tears this time. They were flowing fast from my face.

    "Hailey, what are you saying? Are you breaking up with me?" I couldn't even look him in the eyes. I felt like shit and I wanted to die right there. I didn't want to go through heartbreak again, but if it meant he wasn't going to be hurt then I'd do anything.

    "Austin you deserve much better. I'm not good enough and-"

    "Hailey are you insane?!?! You are everything I've ever wanted. I've waited for years, ever since high school to be with you. Please you can't."

"I'm sorry Austin."

I pulled his face into one final kiss. I was going to miss him.

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    My bags were rolling behind me as I walked through the airport. I already missed everyone and I wasn't even on board yet. I had to leave warped and not go on the tour after. I decided it wouldn't be good for Austin or myself. I was headed to Florida to move and live there from now on. The only ones to know were Alex and Alan. They were like by best friends and they needed to know how life is in the future.

    I missed everyone so much. Especially Austin. But he deserves so much better than me. I'm not anything special and he's a very handsome guy, so he should have no problem finding someone to replace me. I hope he has a happy life. I want him to be happy. To have a happy life and a family. He deserve to be happy.

    A few hours later I landed in Florida. Alex had made me promise to call him as soon as I got here. Maybe he can cheer me up a little bit.

                      ~ Alex's POV ~

     "Dude lets go out to lunch with people! I'm starving and need some more company besides your ugly ass." Jack whined.

"Okay okay, just let me-"

My phone started ringing with the ringtone that made me know she was calling. "Hold on Jack."

"Hello...."

"Alex, I miss you. Why didn't you convince me to stay? I don't know anyone, I don't have a job. Help me please, I don't want to be here." She sounded like she was crying and had been for a while.

"Hailey it's for your own good, I know it hurts right now, and I know you'll be all nostalgic for a while but I know you can get through this. You'll be fine I promise. I looked up stores to rent so you can open up a new shop and I placed money into your bag to get you started. Don't w-"

"Alex who are you talking to? Who did you give money to?"

"Jack don't worry about it, I was just helping out a friend."

"Alex, put Jack on the phone. I think he should know what's going on."

                   ~Hailey's POV~

"Hello??"

"Hi Jack." I sighed. I misses Jack, the way he always cheered me up or acted childish.

"Hailey?? Why are you in the phone with Alex if you're just a few buses away?"

"Jack I'm not there anymore. I'm in Florida."

"Why the hell are you there?! You should be here! What's going on?!"

"Jack I moved here to stop making people's lives worse. I moved so Austin and I can heal from a broken heart. I'm gone so everyone can forget about me and go on with their lives. I'm not that hard to forget so you guys will be fine. I will miss you guys so fucking much but I obviously have to forget and move on too. The months with you all were great and the best times of my life happened on this tour, and I could never thank you guys enough. I love you guys." I was sobbing by now and I couldn't control the tears any longer.

    "Hailey are you fucking stupid? Are you mentally insane?! You leaving could possibly be the worst decision you've ever made. We need you here. I don't care if you and Austin broke up but I know for a fact he needs you here and nothing will change that. You're on fucking drugs if you thing leaving will solve things. Hailey not just Austin needs you here, I can see Alex is stressed to the max about you and everyone else needs you here Hailey. I need you. Please go on the next flight and come back. Please."

    I hung up the phone. I couldn't bear to hear about this any longer. If he said one more word, I would've turned back around and flew back. I missed then so much and I just wants to be back with them. It sucks a lot that my stupid mistakes forced me to leave the people I love. I miss them dearly.

    Am I really going to be able to survive?

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Sorry about the incredibly long wait for these past two chapters. I wrote them then forgot the papers at my dads house and I finally got them back ugh.

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