The diary of a fiend

My selfish needs

I am going on a limb here
And suggesting everyone was asked the question?
What do you want?
Well
I'm not one to hold obot selfish needs
I'm one to be very selfless when in need
Giving everything to everyone
Even to the trees.
So
When asked
What do you want?
I'll answer it simply.
I won't carry on with this knot
In my stomach.
Let me tell you.
My selfish needs.
I wanna be set free.
Away from my family
And thinking of nothing
Probably needless things.
I want to make a million
And hand it all away.
To the poor and other billions
Simply because I want to make others happy
And money just was never a factor to me.
I grew up poor
I'll die poor.
And that's fine with me.
Because its all fancy paper to me.
It don't govern me.
I wish for Rose to be
The one who sits next to me
And that I spoke out my truths
Instead of playing this shitty game
That causes me to lose.
Making loose ends wherever I go
That's not me though
I just want you to know.
I was lonely
And that caused me to be a phony.
Now listen
I want to wake up and not feel dead
Living with all the excitement
Yeah that bliss shit.
I just not want my mind to travel on
Sit inside my thoughts and don't go off.
I guess you can say, I wish to be carefree.
No longer fulfilling my needs.
No longer thinking of bad dreams
No longer wondering if I'll die alone in these bedsheets.
It simple.
I wanna wake up to her presence
Knowing I'll live my life with her essence.
Around me.
Conquering me.
Let is consume me.
Living it up like an Ed Sheeran song
Look it, the man is gone!
Its just you and I
No more separation this time.
This time
It'll be me
I'll wake you up and make the cup of tea this time
Mint.
The one you like
Because I wanna spoil you this tonight
Because we broke away from the A team
No longer stuck in our day dreams
You see this fantasy I create in my mind?
Its the show in my head whenever I think of us
From time to time.
Its sad
But true.
Not more of this.
Let me tell you a dream or two
I wanna be a writer
A Poet
To tell the stories of what me
Others
And people who I'll never forget
All my brothers
And sisters
From around the bend.
But for now.
I'm just gonna tell ya
I needed to be selfish then.