The diary of a fiend

Anger

Let me tell you about anger.
Let me tell you about what causes my.
Anger.
That stranger below me,
My father.
I call him stranger because whenever I am near.
He is far off.
In another world.
Just so gone.
When I tell people I know how it is without a father
I don't lie
I feel like mine left a long time.
And the thing about my mother.
She is sweet but not a saint.
I was in shelter but with an open mind.
Not really living my life.
I made bad choices
(Of my own accord.
No need to blame my family for such discord)
But my mother never knew how to handle it.
Maybe its because I never let in on it...
But either way.
I know my reason for being distant.
Estranged seems to my mission.
Speaking of mission.
Let me tell you of a girl and some distance.
The one I loved.
And I don't mean skinny love
But love.
Try waking up at night.
Waiting for a text that could come at any time.
But I never get it.
I guess I'm not over it...
But that's fine.
I look to the future and I see you
And time is on our side.
I just hope its can be you and I.
And no one else this time...
Let me tell you about the people in my life.
Friends seem to understand me more than my family.
Hence the reason why I came them family.
Talking never works
Just gets me to want to do "work"
But they understand because they've been though it too.
I was a shelter child but now I'm breaking through.
People I have to go.
And even if it means only a bag and a cap.
I'm on my way to go find my show.
Notebook and pen because I have no mistakes.
I'll write it all down and say this verse with a praise.
A simple praise to me.
And the demons that accompany me.
Let me tell you one more time.
Wanna know why my anger never subsides?
Because its a haunting thing.
Knowing I can't go back in time and stop myself from doing
Such. Harsh. Things.
I'm ready to go.
But I can't do it alone.
So where is my white blood?
I need you right here with me.
But then again.
Do dreams ever come true?