who am i?

alone

Author's Note: Im sorry... I know.... I hate me too. This is v late but hey I tried to make it v long...? Well, anyway, it's 2:50 a.m. where I am and I have to be on the bus at 6:30 a.m. so I'm heading to bed. Please leave comments- I love them all. It was actually a certain comment that inspired me to continue writing this story... As I debated ending it for a while. But don't fret; the story shall continue. And right now, it continues with Phil. Enjoy!

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day of dan's attempt; hospital waiting room

Phil's POV

After three hours I began to cramp up in the barely cushioned hospital chair, awaiting any news of Dan. 

Suddenly a nurse came over and sat by me, "Phillip?" she questioned.

I nodded eagerly, hoping for good news. 

"Well Phillip, we are certainly lucky you found Dan when you did. He is unconscious, and in a coma-like state as of right now, and we are not sure when exactly he will wake up, unfortunately, but we can confidently say right now that he will" she smiled. 

I felt relief wash over me, and I sighed heavily, "oh thank goodness. Could I maybe... see him?" 

The nurse smiled brighter and spoke, "yes of course, right this way..." she stood up and lead me to his room, even though I already knew exactly where it was.

As I stepped in, I almost wished I hadn't gone in at all. 

Dan was lying there in the hospital gown, his body straight and almost lifeless apart from his chest slightly rising and falling rhythmically. I was thankful to see that, don't get me wrong, but he just seemed so... not Dan. 

Not my Dan. 

He looked so pale and just so... cold. 

I sat beside him in a chair identical to the uncomfortable waiting room chair and just stared at him. The nurse cleared her throat; reminding me of her presence. 

I shook my head a bit and looked up at her, "Oh... I'm sorry... Um... How long- can I- um- stay here? In the room?"

She smiled at me sadly, as though she pitied me, "As long as you like Phillip."

"Phil." I corrected her, as I expected we'd be seeing a lot of each other, "thank you nurse Pentland."

"Louise." She corrected me as well and gave me another smile; she must've suspected the same thing. 

She left the room politely after letting me know the drill if anything about Dan changes drastically.

Then it was just Dan and I, like it had been since 2009. The two of us against the world. 

I sat in silence for about 10 minutes, but I just couldn't stay quiet. 

"Why did you do it Dan?" I asked quietly. 

He didn't move. 

"I mean, I almost know how you feel... Because of the note. But what about us Dan? We were supposed to get marr-" I couldn't continue. 

I looked to the ground for a moment before looking back up at his still body.

"Dan I don't know if you can hear me like they can in the movies... Or if you're just slowly slipping away in there... But if you can, let me know you're here. " I paused.

He didn't move.

"Anything, please Dan. I need you and I don't no what I'd do without you." I waited again.