Before we begin... *cracks knuckles* ...
No really... I want to apologize that it's taken me so long to finish this. My life has been ... a mess in the past few weeks. Just a few of the lovely things that have happened...
My car broke down (lovely) - I had to put my nearly 15 yr old dog down (still trying to get over it) - my PTX/Kelly concert was canceled - I've been sick, my cat's been sick ... my cousin ended up in the hospital w/ blood clots in both lungs... then ended up BACK in the hospital with multiple blood clots in one leg. (He's ok for now... just meds and no stress) I took a trip to North Carolina to visit my grandmother who has turned into a judgmental ...person... (I love her but... apparently compassion is something you can lose as you get older... also brain to mouth filters... and also self preservation! Seriously Nana... when your oxygen is low it's not 'nbd') ...
So yes. Those are just the tiniest bit of the things going on in my life right now. There's a lot of other things that are still going on and have been going on for awhile that just have put me in a funk... so honestly I am very sorry I've been so M.I.A. lately but trust me... I'm WAY off my game and have been for probably the last 6 months so just bear with me. I'm trying to get the personal life put back together again so I can write and even read since I'm literally SO SO SO behind on reading EVERYTHING. Thanks for sticking with me it truly means literally everything.
Again... must mention the people who, without them, this story would have never happened.
evekatalbas , DeanneAdams, _opheliac, & Sreed09
Different variations of proof reading and inspiration and ideas and toleration of a LOT of whining came from them and I couldn't be more grateful.
Sorry for the long intro... and sorry if this isn't exactly what I wanted it to be, but I didn't want to leave it there.
Now w/o further ado... The End (sorry Sarah :-P ).
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Avi wiped at his cheeks again. He couldn't look at Scott and hold it together so he just kept his focus on the faded mint of the hospital blanket covering him. "What am I supposed to do now?"
"I don't know."
Scott shifted in his seat as silence stretched long and heavy between them.
"I didn't even get to say goodbye." Avi choked up again and looked over at the curtain covering the window.
"I know."
"So I'm just... never going to see her again? Never hold her hand or.. hear her laugh..?"
"I'm... not sure."
"How am I supposed to keep going knowing she's still out there somewhere. How can I just pretend that everything's fine? No one is ever gonna be her, Scott. I can't just forget that."
The sorrow in his voice ripped Scott into a hundred little pieces. He knew the hellish torture that losing Mitch had been and didn't wish that pain on anyone, especially not Avi. "No, you can't. I wish I could say that it'll get better, but I don't know that it will. I don't want to lie to you or feed you a bunch of bullshít. No, it may not ever get easier, but maybe we can fix it."
"How? She doesn't even know who I am anymore!"
Green eyes turned to meet blue and the sight of them nearly broke his heart. "She fell in love with you once... why wouldn't she again?"
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Silver & Gold (Scomiche)
FanfictionHe sees it in his dreams, that symbol, those angles, those eyes. There's a place in his heart that seems forever cold, a part he can never seem to let anyone break into . He tries to live, to love, to find happiness, but somehow it feels as if he's...
