Them

Overwhelming

Luke's P.O.V.

Life isn't the same without Clarity. Ashton is great and all but, I just feel empty without her.

"Luke! Come here now!" I can hear Ashton calling me. I run to see what he needs. I see him in Clarity's room. I walk in and then I see Clarity just hanging there. I fall to my knees and start to balling.

"Ashton, what did you do!" I scream at him.

"I didn't do anything, I was walking by to come to our room and I heard someone gasping for air. I came in and saw this." What happened. "She left a note."

Ashton handed me the note which said:

"Friends and family,
I'm sorry for the person I have become and the things I have done to hurt you all. You won't have to deal with it anymore. I love you all so very much, it was just all to overwhelming. I didn't want to go, but I had to. No one but myself has made me do this. I choose to do it and I did it on my own. I do not want anyone blaming them self for this, it's not what I would have wanted.
Luke, you mean so much to me and I'm sorry I cannot be there for you anymore. I love you so much, and it's okay that you didn't love me back. You have a happy life now and that's all that matters. I want you and Ashton to be together happily and I don't want either of you to give up. You guys are meant for each other. Life with you couldn't have been any better.
I want everyone to remember me for the person I was, not for how I passed. You have all made my life better even when things got rough. Everyone stay strong and don't ever give up. I can't wait to see you all soon :)."

At this point, I couldn't stop crying. I threw the note down and put my head into my knees. Ashton came over and put his arms around me. Clarity had done this because I left her. I already knew something bad was going to happen because of the choice I made, but I didn't think it was going to be this bad. I truly loved Clarity, but now that I made a mistake, I can't take it back. She's gone and she's never coming back, and it's all because of me.

"Luke, it's okay, you'll be fine, I promise. I'm going to go get the others. Don't move, I'll be right back." Ashton got up and left to get the others. After a few minutes, they all walked in.

When they came in, I was still in the same position as before, crying. "Luke are you okay?" Michael said to me as he was holding Livy's hand. I just sat there not answering. I got up and walked over to Ashton and just hugged him. I didn't let go. When I looked up I saw Livy's head was on Michael's chest and Brittany seemed as if she was on the phone and had her head buried in Calum's neck.

After a while, an ambulance showed up and took Clarity away. We went our separate ways to grieve and Ashton stayed with me to make sure I was okay. "Luke, it's not your fault. Not at all. If it's anybody's, it's mine. I'm the one that made you want to leave her. Please don't be mad at yourself. It wasn't your fault."

He was trying to help but anything anyone said wouldn't help me. I understand that I will be okay, but Clarity wont ever be okay. I won't be able to see her beautiful face anymore, I won't be able to hear her sweet voice, I won't be able to tell her I love her.

"Luke, do you want me to make this better?" If I say yes, what will he do?

"How could you possibly make this any better?"

"I have my ways." Ashton started to take parts of clothing and soon enough led to me taking clothing off too.

*2 hours later*

Ashton and I are laying naked inside the bed. "Did I make you feel better?" I still feel horrible but I feel a little better.

"Yes, thank you Ash." He kisses my neck and starts rubbing my thighs. We just got done why is he starting again.

After about 10 minutes, he stops to turn on Netflix and cuddles to watch a movie. I'm glad Ashton was there for me and he felt the same way about me I felt about him. I wouldn't be here without him right now.

"Ashton, thank you fro being there for me. I don't know how I would be dealing with this right now without you. Even though this might have been our fault, you kept your head up to show me I could do it. Thank you for staying strong."

"I didn't stay strong to show you you could do it, I did it because I was happy, even though we lost a friend, I still have you. We've known each other for a while now and we know how each other work, I've always had feelings for you, I just wasn't sure how you felt about me. When people started to ship 'Lashton', I was so happy because I thought it meant you liked me too, but know I know how you really feel and it's amazing."

Ashton had always made life easier on me. He was there for everyone of us. He sincerely cared about us, and he wasn't scared to show it. You don't find many people like that. I'm glad he's all mine.