-Let My Guard Down-

-Slut-

-Heather's P.O.V-

*Night Before*

After grabbing more drinks I rejoined Josh who was now talking to Vikk,

'Where have you been?' Josh asked curiously

'The queue for the loo was long, I was only gone 5 minutes anyway' he then smiled and wrapped his arm around my waist,

'I know but I felt like forever' he said quietly into my ear. 

Feeling uneasy as Vikk was only standing next to us I changed the subject to something random so it wasn't awkward and I didn't have to flirt with Josh because that is one thing I'm terrible at.

Josh left after about 10 minutes to use the loo which left me and Vikk talking or more so taking shots to pass time. Without realising Vikk has left me I was still taking shots when Josh reappeared,

'How much have you drank in them 2 minutes I have gone?' I ignored him and carried on mumbling the song that was playing, Josh started talking again but I wasn't concreting on his words but was distracted by something or should I say someone else who had come back downstairs.

Simon and Sam had started dancing in the large group by the stereo. Snapping out of my trance I looked back towards Josh acting interested so I wasn't caught creeping on them, again. Not knowing what Josh had been talking about I interrupted him,

'Can we go outside?' I asked quickly so I could get out the house so I wasn't tempted to stare at Simon for any longer, grabbing his hand I dragged him out the door and sat him onto the garden chairs at the corner of the garden.

I enjoyed the silence between us whilst my head was spinning making me want to throw up. I began hearing laughing increasingly getting louder and more distant of who it was, soon after Si and Sam walked into the garden. There were about 5 people outside excluding me and Josh so i didn't take long for Josh to see them,

'Si!' He shouted across the garden trying to get him to come over I guess. I put my head in my hands so I didn't have to look directly at either of them and if it was even possible for them not to recognise me.

'Oh hey Josh, Heather' Si said as he sat down with Sam, but making it even more awkward when he says my name. I respond by just lifting my hand in a wave like motion but keep it close to me so I didn't have to show my face.

'What's up with her?' Sam asked knowing why I was hating this situation but probably wanting to know if I had told Josh anything about earlier,

'I think she may of just had a bit too much to drink' Josh replied putting his arm around me and kissing my head,

'You keep an eye on her she has started one or two fights whilst being drunk' everyone laughed at Sam's comment but me,

'That's only because someone always seems to be kissing every boy she finds and parties even if they have girlfriends, then getting herself into a bitch fight ending up needing me to stand up for her so i get my hair pulled out by a bunch of skinny barbies'  I mention referring to Sam. There was then a silence so I sat up and finished on saying,

'I was talking about Sam the slut over there if you didn't realise' I say as I get up heading back into the house.

I couldn't stand the drunk strangers of trashy music anymore so after grabbing a bottle of wine because I like to keep it classy I make my way back up to the top floor so I could sit in the spare room. I had crashed in the spare room a couple of times in the last week or so as I would be chatting to Simon in his room then when it got late i would just crash in there for the night whilst Simon recorded videos. 

I relaxed onto the bed finally having some peace and quiet. 

After one too many sips of wine straight out the bottle the door swung open,

'What makes you think you can speak to Sam like that?' Simon shouted as he barged into the room,

'Cheers' I shout happily holding up the bottle and laughing which led him to snatching it out my hands,

'Give it back' I ask as I attempt to stand up and grab it. He pushes me back down on the bed,

'You just called her a slut!'

'And that's the truth, did you really expect her to be any different. For starters she chose you out of all the guys here, if you ask me then I'd say she's a gold dig-'

'What's that supposed to mean?'

'Well a gold digger is someone who-'

'No that she choose me out of all the guys here? What do you mean by that?'

'You know what I mean but you too might actually be good together considering if you can even get her into a relationship without her sleeping with a different every night'

'So why might we be good together'

'You both know how to make me feel like a pile of shit for starters' 

'How? I don't even talk to you when you aren't here!'

'Exactly' I start to feel dizzy from the shouting but not knowing how to end the argument before I reveal anymore information that makes me sound weak or an emotional girl,

'Just go Simon it's not worth it'

'I'm trying to understand why you are being like this so if I have done something then I can be a better friend to you' 

'Why aren't even friends'

'What?'

'I only hung out with you at fright night so I could meet your friends, now I have Josh I don't need you' Simon's face went from anger to complete sadness and only now I realise what I have said.

I follow Simon out the door apologising for what I said but he got to his room and slams the door I panicked and try to run door the stairs so I can get out the house before the lie I stupidly said spreads around but I wasn't long before I passed out luckily just after reaching the bottom of the top floor stairs.

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Favorite chapter to write so far:) i don't know where this book is going but it's fun writing it!

'In this life, when you deny someone an apology, you will remember it at time you beg forgiveness'