-Let My Guard Down-

-Monster-

-Heather's P.O.V-

It all happened so quickly, it's amazing how anger can turn you into some kind of monster in just one second, the first time i actually realized what i was doing was when it was to late and although the damage was done i didn't regret a single thing.

There he was lying in bed with who i guess was Charlotte. Josh soon saw me in the doorway and jumped out of bed running towards me but at this moment i didn't do the normal thing and run which seemed Josh was expecting too, i stood still waiting for Josh to get closer then unleashed all my anger into my hands and held him tightly in my grip shoving him aggressively against the wardrobe.

Words escaped my mouth which i had no control over when i felt a pair of sharp nails grab my hip and pull my hair. I sharply turned and kicked the girl directly in the stomach, well she asked for it.

Josh ran over to the floor comforting her,

'Fuck Heather! why did you do that?' he screamed, i just stared back at him as he already knew the answer,

'Gosh are you alright love?' he places his hand on her stomach; watching the way he acts when with her and calls her love right in front of me makes me want to punch him. I stomp over and grab his shirt dragging him over to the other side of his room, instantly now can smell alcohol on his breath,

'Just face the fact you weren't good enough' he laughs hysterically. Now i desperately want to punch him but just as i lift my arm so i could make the biggest impact possible onto his jaw someone had picked me up pulling over to the door.

'Get your hands off me!' i turn swiftly pushing the figure to the ground then seeing Vik.

'Whats all the shouting abo- Heather what have you done?' Simon questions as he enters the room.

I took a moment to glance round the room seeing the damage i have done, the bodies groaning in pain scattered across the room, wardrobe that has a dent in from where i pushed Josh into it; how could i do this in such short time and have little control over my body when doing it amazed me.

'He didn't did he?' snapping me out my trance Simon grumbled suggesting to the girl on the floor . I didn't reply or make eye contact because what was i supposed to say?

'Heather talk to me' Si helped Vik up then put his hand on my shoulder.

'Wow Heather you moved on quick' Josh laughed again whilst getting up watching me and Si,

'You seemed to move on before we even started dating' I hissed still with Simon holding me back.

'really why did you bring her here?' Simon interrupted

'Why shouldn't she be here? You should be asking Heather that she has no business of being here' Before he had time to finish Simon pounced onto to him both of them falling to the ground with a thud.

Me and Vik simultaneously drag Simon off of him whilst i stand between both of them,

'Simon it's my fight, not yours' i cautioned him, i spin towards Josh again;

'Honestly now after seeing this i don't give two shits what you do now but just know if not tomorrow, next month or year you'll regret what you have done and i won't be there for you.' i concluded as i then began to walk out the door slamming it behind me.

In before the barbie tries to take a second attempt at fighting my but my reaction time was quick enough to push my fist into her chest to hold her back,

'and for you "love" i will never be jealous of whatever you two are as my parents taught me to give my used toys to the less fortunate.' She fell back the stomped back to Josh's room.

I paused at the stairs, taking a moment to breathe before my drive back home but Si takes my hand and insisted,

'There's no way you are driving in your state, you are way too tired and need time to calm down.'

'I'll be fine; this is the last place i want to be' i shake the grip of his hand around mine although he doesn't let go instead he yanked me back up the stairs.

Sliding my back down the side of his bed letting my head fall into my hands i sighed, he threw his arm around me rocking me from side to side.

'Can i just say you are the bravest, scariest person i've ever meet.' laughing at his way to compliment me i rested my head onto his shoulder.

'I want you to understand that anything Josh said isn't true and that you deserve something far better than him. Someone who knows you and loves you for who you are' he seriously states,

'Please stop being so cringy' i shiver at his speech,

'Heather, seriously I mean it'

'ok whatever' i laugh trying to avoid an emotional talk with him,

'Why don't you open up about it and talk to me. Can't you just let your guard down for once?'

'that's the last thing i want to do right now and what's there to talk about anyway? He has someone else already and i don't, enough said'

'Heather i-'

'No Simon i don't want to discuss it. What happened happened, it's my fault for liking him in the first place then dating him so it would help me forget about-' Pausing realising what I was about to say,

'Forget about what' Simon questioned,

'I'm just going to go Si, thank you for everything but i can't stand being in the same house as him for any longer.' I walk over and hug him before i leave,

'But why did you fall for him instead of me?' Simon whispers into my ear in the middle of our hug that lasted longer than i expected. Pushing him off but him leaving his hands with a tight grip on my hips, i look back shocked and confused,

'Wha-What?' I stuttered not knowing what else to say,

Without replying he began to lean in...

What is going on?!

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YAY SIMON. boo josh you whore. 

  "New love can heal lost loves, but it cannot make you forget."  

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