Sinistral

Chapter Sixteen

Being alone, is my weakness. Worse then anything else that had or was going to be chucked at me. The thought of losing the only thing I have, nearly destroyed me there and it probably would destroy me completely if it had been for a long period of time.

Zack was taken away from me. I had been left alone, carrying on the journey as if I would be okay on my own. But once I knew I was on my own and even as I tried to carry on and convince myself I'll be okay, deep within I had known I wasn't, I needed Zack more then ever. Zack is the only thing I had.

I now need to tell you about my next struggle. The point where I thought I would have to do something horrible. Bare through the pain because I had no one. No one to guide me, take my hand. I had no one to save me, help me up.

I was very much alone. I was about to do it and if I had I would have never been the same old Cayden again. A part of me would have been gone, forever.

I wish, I could say I never considered it. But I did, I nearly did it but something pulled me back from the no return, just in the nick of time....

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My eyes lifted up, at the huge mountain in front of me. My feet ached, my trainers were hanging loosly around my feet. I considered just taking them off but climbing a mountain, I'll need all the protection on my feet I can get.

 My heart still ached, that maybe Zack would show up before I climbed up. That maybe, he'll start laughing. Oh Cayden, you need me for everything don't you? And I'll laugh back nodding, or making up some excuse I don't, when I actually do.

I sighed, there was no way around it I had to climb it whether I wanted to or not, I had to get to the other side, if Zack had been by my side I would have the courage that I needed, the enthusiasm, the confidence, the knowing that I could do this but without Zack I had none of that.

I had no hope, no feeling except a emptiness inside of me, a part of me felt like it was missing and that part was Zack. In that moment I closed my eyes and wished him right there by my side again, when I opened them and looked around, nothing.

I clenched my fists. I felt anger as well as sorrow. Why had Zack been take away from me? I didn't deserve this, or did I?

Feeling sorry for myself, isn't going to get me anywhere. As much as I feel like it will. I sighed, my face filling up with annoyance. I took one more look up the mountain before I walked slowly forward taking my first grip on the mountain and hoisting myself up onto the first point out rock, that has formed over time.

The rock had a sharpe jagged edge to it, so my fingers started to ache as the rock dag into them. I had just taken my first step and was already in pain, this wasn't going to be easy, my foot was slippery against the just fallen snow and I found it hard to get a good grip on the bottom of the mountain.

I winced, but managed to get a firm grip on my feet as I started upwards. I started to lift my body weight up clinging onto any rocks which had enough strength to stand it. Eventually I got into a pattern my hands finding a grip strong enough to hold my weight and my feet following, climbing upwards towards the top of the mountain, the snow made it hard however I used all the strength I had left and thought of Zack, thinking of Zack gave me that something extra I needed to keep going.

I grabbed onto the next part of mountain climbing up onto a firm ledge, which took my weight with ease. I brushed the dust of my clothes, and exhaled deeply and started walking along the ledge carefully and slowly making sure I didn't get to close to the edge.

I couldn't help but look down, I hadn't realised I had already climbed about half way. I pulled myself from the view below and looked up. I had already did half way. Just the other half to go.