Infinities

Chapter 24

I don't know what to say. On one hand I need to go on the other I don't want to leave Tyler. I didn't want him to find out like this. I was hoping that Sky would help me figure how to break it to him. But I guess that's gone now. God he must be so pissed I don't even know what to say. I just really want him to understand why.

"Jianna can I talk to you in my room please?" He asks but by his tone you could tell it wasn't really a request. Normally I'd be stubborn and refuse to go because of the way he asked, however I really need to talk to him and explain to him why I was going.

"Talk to you soon boo." I said to Sky waving at her before following Tyler to his room. He held the door open for me and followed behind once I got in. He closed the door and bolted it shut.

"When is your flight ?" he didn't hesitate, the question just flowed out of him.

"Noon." I answered looking down on my hands.

"When were you planning on telling me this ?" He asked in a monotone voice.

"When Sky helped me figure out a way to tell you." I said in a high pitch voice. Trying to sound as innocent as possible.

"What the fuck Jianna! Are you serious right now." He has blown, there's not so much anger as there is sadness in his voice.
I cant help but feel terrible for keeping this from him, I felt a tear run down my face.
" save the waterworks Jianna, yoh were the one who waited last minute to tell me that your leaving for the rest of the summer. If anything I'm the one who should be crying. But I'm not going to because I know your not giving up on us. And the only reason you would leave is a matter of life or death am I right?" He said sitting next to me on the bed.

"My grandmother is ill and shw wanted all of her children and grandchildren there before, " I couldn't finish the sentence before breaking down in tears.

Tyler pulled me on his lap and cradled me in his arms. I rest my face in his chest and continue a soft sob. "Don't cry baby girl it's ok."

I tried to keep myself from crying. Honestly I wasn't only crying for my grandma, it had dawned on me that we'll be apart for so long and we haven't been together that long either. Maybe he'd find somebody prettier,funnier or someone he'll be able to see regularly. I don't know if he'll go running for the hills, I mean we just started a relationship could what we build withstand the pressure of distance? I don't want to think about this but then again I needed to think about it because anything is possible.

When I managed to stop crying, I look at him and he looks back at me. He kisses the top of my head and a smile creeps on my lips.

"Ty?" I say softly I needed to get something off my chest before I leave for the summer. Even though my face is stained with tears I really don't care. I think its pretty ovious by now, however I'm going to make it crystal clear.

He looks at me and I just take a deep breath. "I love you Tyler. I hope you know that. I truly and undoubtedly love you. "

His faced dropped almost as if he was shocked but not a good shock. This was a mistake I shouldn't have said that. Idiot.
"I'm sorry forget I said anything. I can't believe I just said that."

I tried to get up from his embrace, but he held me tight.

"Don't ever say that again." He says harshly. "Don't say you take it back. Because I want you to know that the feeling is mutual. To hell the feel has been mutual from our first date. Jianna......... I-I-I love you." He said with a slight stutter.

With one swift motion his lips plastered over mine and for a split second I hadn't reacted but that soon quickly changed. I returned his kiss decided to sit up and wrap my legs around him. Taking a deep breath and rolling my body towards him never breaking the kiss.