Infinities

Chapter 25

"Baby are you ok?" Tyler asks lying beside me panting hard. I on the other hand was mesmerized, trying to control my breathing thinking about what just happenejd.

"I'm ..... great." I say in between pants.

"That wasn't too rough for you was it ?"

I give him a smile. "I don't think I can walk, honestly I'm scared to even stand up. But othet than that, I'm terrific."

I smile at him turing my body to his. He mimics my movement and we just stay there. Gazing, searching if you ask me. We were searching for something. I was lookinga at the guy I loved. The first guy I've ever had feelings for. The guy who just took my virginity. Honestly he was my first everything. But the same couldn't be said for him. I'm sure of two girls he's slept with were there anymore? Were the good ? Was I anygood? I could help myself from wondering. I mean he has alot of experience and I well I was a virgin to everything until the summer had begun. What if I wasn't good enough for Tyler.

"What's running through your head babygirl?" He say my contemplative state. Should I tell him. What if he takes it the wrong way? What if he gets mad? I reallt need to stop askimg myself rhetorical questions.

"Was that ok for you ? Was I ok?" I ask looking down on his hand that was on top of mine.

"Where did that come from Ji ?"

"I was just thinking if that was ok for you as it was for me." I say still looking at his hand. He then moved it to my waist and pulled me closer to him.

"Don't ever doubt yourself. You were amazing to me. And to be honest your the tightest I've had. At one point I thought I'd break something. Or break me." I chuckled in his chest.

"How many were there?" I ask looking at him. He gave me back a shocked look.

"Ummm 13" he said in a low voice. What the actual fuck. 13 girls. Wow!

"As in a 1 and a 3 .... wow Ty ....wow." the insecurities started to surface again.

" They dont matter. You matter. And only you." He said kissing my forehead. It made me feel better. I was a sucker for his lips.

"What time is it Ty? " I yawned oviously tired.

"4:15 why?"

I sat up fast. "My parents are getting upnat five."

He flew up. "Then lets get you cleaned up. "

He got up and scooped me up in his arms. Opening his bathroom door. He proceeded to the shower and set me down while he turned on the water.

"Your gonna have to walk at some point Jianna. " he held my hands pulling me towards the shower. I took a deep breath and took a step. Ow. " sore? " I nodded walking in the shower.

The water was warm and inviting. It was well needed after that. Tyler stood behind me running his hands along my body and kissing my neck. As much as i wanted this to continue I need to get home asap. 

" Ty we cant the time, my parents, your parents, we should hurry."

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I sat on the bed waiting for him to get out of the bathroom. Sitting on the edge were he was laying before, trying to find my clothes. I found my underwear and quickly slipped it on before he came out of the bathroom.

"Oh shit." i hear him say and my head snaps to face him. My  eyes follow his and sees what he is string at. There it was, my innocents in the form of blood, pooled on the bed. Honestly thank God I'm leaving I won't be the one washing those sheets.

I smile at him. It was the only think I could do. What should I have said, sorry I bleed on your bed while you deflowered me? I'm trying by best not to run and hide from him and be less shy around him. 

"Could u toss me my dress ?"  He took up the dress from the ground beside him, and tossed it in my direction. I put the dress over my head and started walking to the door. I grabbed my heels and we made our way downstairs, trying to be quite so we don't wake anyone.

We were in front of my door. When he kissed me good bye. God I'm going to miss his kisses. I tilt my head and whimper as he pulls away.

"Fuck!" He  says loudly. I give him a quizzical look. "Your father is going to kill me."

I'm confused "what! why? He has no way of finding out what happened."

"Tell that to the hickeys on your neck."

"What!" I say and my hand flies to my neck.
What hickeys as in bruises on my beck from Tyler's sweet sweet assault.

"I'm sorry ji guess I got carried away. I mean can you blame me?" I look on his neck and notice two on his left side and one on the right. Did I do that?

"Well I should be saying the same to you."

We both chuckle. " I'm going miss your laugh and your smile. But I'll still beat any guy that tries to touch you from beyond the grave. When your farther murders me."

I give him a peck on the lips. " bye Ty." I hug him  tightly. He let's go and kisses me on my forehead.

"Hey I'll be back when you come back waiting right here."

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I'll be away from him. Away from us. I'll be away form Sky. I've never been friends with someone so quickly before. I mean even my roommates got the silent treatment for a month. At least I have a phone now. So we can stay in contact. This sucks beyond compare.

At the same time I love the fact that I'm going to see my grandmother and other relatives I haven't seen in what seems to be forever. All my family members live in Florida for both sides too. But my parents moved to Seattle for work. I don't really know why.

Can we please talk about what happend last night. I can't even fathom it.  I lost my virtue. So much for marriage. I'm just happy it was with Tyler. I love Tyler, I trust him.  I'm sorry I sound like a sappy fool but I can't stop smiling. When I think of him the first thing I do is smile. Why ? I have no freaking clue. I miss him already. But will he miss me as much? Will he stay completely faithful during the time we're apart?

Who am I kidding of course he will, right ?

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~End of part 1~