Previously......
This somehow felt very different and not no knowing what to do or how to help his friend, who was clearly in need of help, tugged at his heart strings and made him experience the type of feelings he's never felt before. He wanted to help just didn't know how, but he'd figure it out. He'd do it to help Rigby. It was for Rigby.
Now.....
They got home pretty late almost 4 a.m when they got back home. Benson had decided that even though it would be too dirty outside after a storm, because of everyone sleeping late, he decided to let everyone rest up for one day and continue work tomorrow.
Rigby was quiet the entire day. Never even said good morning or anything at all. Every time Mordecai would look into his eyes they would be sad and vacant.
They all just decided to sleep in that day no one went anywhere. Mordecai woke up sometime during the afternoon and looked towards Rigby's bed and noticed he wasn't there. He got up and went to the bathroom to look for him but he wasn't there. He went down stairs and no sign of him at all in the house. He walked back to the room and just as he walked in he saw Rigby walk in through the window. Now he seemed like he had more emotion in his facial expression than before.
He was holding something in his hand but it was hidden underneath his sweater sleeve. He instantly looked at Mordecai in the eyes and gave him a small smile as he made his way to the bathroom.
Mordecai just stayed still where he stood looking at the spot Rigby was once standing in. He noticed a flash of red in Rigby's hand when he was walking towards the bathroom. He didn't know what to do, he didn't know how to deal with something like this. He wanted to help Rigby because he knew it would only get worse with time and at the same time he didn't know how to deal with it because he knew deep down that the reason he was hurting himself was because it hurt more to see the one you love with someone else.
Rigby came out of the bathroom and noticed that Mordecai hadn't moved since he came in through the window. He walked up to him and stood right in front of him. Looking directly into his eyes he smiled and spoke.
"Hey Mordo, what up dude, you look like you just saw the ghost of a naked old lady!" He said with a silly smile on his face. He expected Mordecai to be disgusted by what he said and playfully shove him and laugh along with him, but he didn't. What he did do surprised him more.
Mordecai extended his arms and pulled Rigby in an embrace, with his hands on his middle section and his nose in the crook of his neck. His body was shaking, his eye shut tight and his brows furrowed into a sad expression.
"Rigby.....I'm sorry.....for everything. I'm sorry for hurting you like this.....you don't deserve this.....I'm sorry."Mordecai's voice sounded so broken and that was a hint, aside from how much his body was shaking, that he was crying. He was crying for Rigby. His best friend.
Rigby looked so shocked and the was just limply being held by Mordecai for a couple of seconds before he too had his arms round Mordecai. He gave a sad smile while being held by Mordecai knowing it could be the only time they have a moment like this. When this thought come to mind he couldn't help but let a few sad tears from falling down his cheeks.
"Hey Mordo, don't be going soft on me b-bro." He said as more tears flowed down his face. It pained him to only call him friend or a bro, but he did it because he knew Mordecai only had his heart set out to be with Margaret.
"It's because of me.....that you!....that you're hurting!" He was crying harder then before, but he continued to talk. "I know you're hurting because of me! Yet! Yet I can't do anything to help you, I don't know how to help you!" He sobbed into Rigby's neck and hugged him closer and tighter.
Rigby's face scrunched up in a pained expression and hugged him just as tight. His own tears doubled in amount and he sobbed quietly.
"It's n-not....your fault it's.....it's mi-mine...for fall-falling in....it's love with..my-my best friend. So p-please....st-stop crying." He said as he tried to calm Mordecai as well trying to calm himself.
It took a while for both of them to calm down, when they finally did they were a mess of puffy eyes and snot filled noses. They looked at each other for several moments before Rigby gave Mordecai a sad smile and let go of the embrace they were on.
"You know.....I'm happy." He said as he walked off to sit on the side of his bed and looked back up at Mordecai. "I'm happy that you were able to be with the one you love.he paused once more and although his face showed a smile it was clear it was a sad one and his eyes showed more of that same heartbreaking sadness. "Even if that means that I can't."
Mordecai wanted to say something to him but he found his voice was gone and he couldn't make a single word leave his mouth. He looked at his friend, but it hurt to call him that when he knew Rigby wants to be more then that.
"It's getting late, we should go to sleep. We don't want to be tired tomorrow after having a day off to rest" Rigby said and got ready for bed. All the while Mordecai still couldn't get any words to come out.
He too got ready for bed after a while and after they said their 'good night's' it was silent and they both fell into an uneasy slumber.
There another chapter done! All for you hyuuumaaanzzz! I'll try to get another one started today so that I can put it up tomorrow.
